Here i go again...

Its sunday n its the 2nd day of the fasting month... Well whats been happening to me since my last post? Hhmmm... Much i guess...

BRIDEX 2009 is finally over... Alhamdulillah... It went well... My experience as a support staff in the operations department? Ada ups n downs nya... Ada kan menangis moment... Ada happy moment... Ada kan bekelaie moment... Ada pissed off moment... Ada rasa being left out moment... Tapi hey i learnt alot... ALOT!... Merasa jua ku d marahi atas sebab kesalahan diri mahupun bukan... Terima saja seadanya... Pokok nya nda bulih give up lh... Mesti tahan... Its not easy... But ia mengajar erti berdikari... Org ckp siuk jua 2 @ least merasa bekaja for the international event... Awu banar... I wont trade the experience i had with anything in this world... And i wont care much about the payment indeed.. And the most thing that i really2 miss is the bzness atu lh... Xpecially masa built up...

n to tell u guys the truth... Not much picture taking from me... Busy meh... Mencuri masa ckit2 saja to enjoy the moment... Tapi to really enjoy it... No time... :)

enough of that...

my current interest... Make up... Kes nada kaja wa aku ah... Masa ani practice kan melawa kan my eye lining technique n be'mascara' susah yo for me yg beginner ani... Aku ani sebenarnya nda plng rajin kan look pretty... Tapi for the sake of making my $1++ spending on make up worth it... Jadinya... I'll make it a habit la... Yatah magazine yg ku collect ku jadikan sebagai buku panduan... Slowly... Masa ani basic make up saja... Bila ku udah pandai ckit... I'll do more xperiment on color... Hehehe...

and owh ya... These few days several of my fren yg aku btah dah nda communicate with been asking about my love life... Mcm... I know people do sometimes concern... Tapi i dont have any updates regarding that... So much i want to share... Tapi sorry... Nada... :) walaupun sunyi tapi i'm happy with what i have now... Thank You... :) tapi if someone out there wants to give it as a Raya surprise... I'll take it... Hahah... :p

Salam Ramadhan
FIFI

sunday morning...

how's life?? doing great?? or its a so-so...??

well mine is oookkk... i really miss my comfort zone... tapi sampai bila i want to stay comfortable without challenging my own strength... i always wonder why people nda mau take a challenge yg d luar dari their comfort zone... sedang kan that challenge at the end offering something rewarding.... why?? the other day one fren of mine had to quit her job psal kan continue her study... so the department cari penganti lah ah... n org2 yg d pilih untuk menganti kedia ani sorg2 nda sanggup... banar plng kaja nya atu have to meet people... pokok nya dealing with people lah.... n now ada dh penganti nya... n the reward of being taking the challenge atu... the person kana bagi permanent job... bukan sementara... bisai jua 2 kan...


semoga saja kan ku dapati yg tulus mencintai ku.... :)

I feel bad....

Just got back from a party... Its not an ordinary one... Its the party... Weird thing is... Im d only one yg didnt drink... Baik jua aku nda btudung... F nda feel awkward jua 2 kan... Actually i have a wild imagination plng want 2 try 2 drink n smoke... Tapi tadi dpn2 mata udh... I refuse.... No la... Its not my way of life... I respect la org lain its their way of having fun... But me just mingling wif ppl is enough udh... :)

ok stop on that...

my work so far ok ler... Its not fun yet... Tunggu la till the build up n all the xhibitor is coming... Baru tah seronok kali... Hehehe... Actually i dun want to really share la psal takut ku tmention thing yg sensetive... Psal i've signed a contract... 5 taun nda bulih share confidential about my work.... Yatah...

n tadi my so called bos said i look different without tudong... I said really?? Hahaaha... Sebenarnya aku tau yg aku look different f not wearing tudong... Sal before ani pun bnyk org tagur... Hehe... Angkat bakul ku ckit... Hahaha... I love wearing tudong psal bgi ku smart...

its time 2 sleep...

nite2...

I tell you...

Sorry alum ku tshare about my trip 2 KK... Since balik dri sana aku alum smpai2 nya meng-conquer internet... Kana pajak ulih org2 yg ada dlm rumah ani... Few photos i like 2 share... Gerenti ada yang... Well... Let it be a surprise... Hehehe... ;p

actually aku kn tdur th ni... But b4 atu... Aku retrieve some of my inbox dlm hp ani... Kn membaca balik msg yg kna ntar tadi pagi... Heheh... Skali bnyk isi nya inbox ani so i would like to delete.... Sekalinya... Aku tbaca sikit msg dri someone... Rupanya nda ku delete msg atu... Yatah nw... My heart racing faster... Hhhmmm..... Why oh why....

the other day i went for an interview... Yg ganjil nya.. U attend briefing dulu... Then bru interview... Slalu f kna pnggil briefing ani automatically u think kana accept bkaja jua kan 2... Rupanya nda.... It was ok plng... Tapi aku ada problem buat eye contact saja... Its my problem btw... Kalau ku bckp aku nda pndai kan liat mua org... Mata ku wander around... Hopefully ok la...

season org kawin datang lagi... Yatah masa nya soalan2 yang membuat ku senyum nda ikhlas kana tanyakan ni... Kalau org yg aku nda biasa... Aku just jwb... Ah alum lagi eh... Kaja dulu... Kalau yg sadang biasa... Cari usin dulu... :) n kalau yg ku biasa banar2... Aku jwb... Aku bah kan kawin tapi laki wa alum ada... Cana tah jua... Paksa tah mencari dulu... Hahahha...

personally i think sebuah perkahwinan atu something beautiful... To find that someone who will make the wedding itself complete and beautiful atu yg challenging...

i wanna go to sabah again... Kalau th aku bisa.. I'll go there n stay as long as i want... Untuk holiday plng saja 2... Hehehe... Nda ku sanggup lama2 banar... Rindu ku kan rumah ku d sini... Kwn2 ku g... Sian jua 2 drg temimpi2 kn aku sal rindu.... Hahahahha... :p y i love 2 travel... Pasal the problems n things that happen b4 travelling atu... I completely forgot about it tu as soon as i come back home... Banar... Yatah... Sebenarnya janji away from my normal daily life.... Mcm a yr ago... I migrate a while k KB at my granny... After that alhamdulillah... N please note that while away atu jangan tah mengharap ku kan membawa ole2 ah... Bukan ku karit... Tapi usually nya slagi barang yg ku hajati atu alum ku dapat... Selagi atu aku nda pikir barang untuk org... Unless my family.... So... :)

no superwomen
FIFI

berbual....

~~~

lawa???

hehehehehe

unwell :)

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

life~

hhmm... what should i share here with you people.... lets see...

nda g batah aku kan k KK.... yyeeaaayyy~ im looking forward berabis ni.... hehehe... few days left.... i like to travel... so no matter how short or long the distance... i dont mind... janji travel... hehehe...

n kemarin... i went to KB to visit my nini... with no plan what so ever.... tarus ja k KB... with my parents that is... well my mum tesliur cendol c ah kang... hehehe.... well if u kb-ian... will know d mana 2... hehehe... tapi too bad gerai nya tutup... well sunday... mana jua ya ada... so gerai yg d sebalah nya saja.... sedap yyooo.... we order cucur2an... rojak... n sotong kangkung... n abc... heheheheh... its a must eat tu when u went to KB... heheh... and sekalinya my mum craving kn makan mee putih nya... n aku pun jua tesliur... hhmm... n then kana mention lagi talur itam.... aaiiyyooo.... lagi tah d mana kan mencari... the last time i had it masa gerai siring sungai masih ada.... ani mana lagi ada.... waduh... hahahahaha..... ok enough.... hahahah....

sambil2 i blogging ani... i sedang membuat macaroni cheese tuna... requested by... my sister... hehehe.... for our breakfast... kalau kana request saja ku membuat.... mun nama nya voluntarily... i ada rasa malas sikit... hehehe...

the weather is nice outside... hopefully nda panas banar lah ah today... i wanna go out... but as usual... unknown destination... hehehe.... sebenarnya i crave kan makan fish n chips... malas ku masak wa... ada plng d freezer atu... hahahaha... pasal i watched little people big world tu drg c jer had dinner with kristen on their 1st yr anniversary.... nyaman usul fish n chips nya ah... hhmm...

im abit semangat today... thats why jua i blog... slalu malas wa nada motivation... hehehe.... last nite i had a dream pasal someone that u might know... n in that dream iya minta my no... mcm... senyum ku eh... hahaha... wish it was real... krg tah ku add FB nya... hehehe.....

not crazy
FIFI