Takkan Berpaling Dari Mu

kala malam bersihkan wajahnya dari bintang-bintang
dan mulai turun setetes air langit dari tubuhnya
tanpa sadar nikmatnya alam karena kuasaMu
yang takkan habis sampai di akhir waktu perjalanan ini

terima kasihku padaMu Tuhanku
tak mungkin dapat terlukis oleh kata-kata
hanya diriMu yang tahu besar rasa cintaku padaMu

oh Tuhan anugerahMu tak pernah berhenti
selalu datang kepadaku Tuhan semesta alam
dan satu janjiku takkan berpaling dariMu

(terima kasihku) ya Allah
(padaMu Tuhanku) anugerahMu
(anugerahMu)

Engkau sisihkan semua aral melintang di hadapanku
dan buat terang seluruh jalan hidup ’tuk melangkah

rossa

New kitty~~

YEAY~! finally the long wait is over... Dapat jua ahernya baby damit after so many long years... Hehe... Kiut!! Just like the mummy n d daddy... Tapi 1 ekor saja... But we guess ada lagi ddalam parut since mummy nya punya tummy msih basar... Tapi nda kan? So we wait la... Sebenarnya dua... Tapi yg the first born kitty nda survive... So tinggal 1 saja... Sian... :( nw cant wait iya basar... Wweehhee... :p

oh... Finally n officially yours truly turning 24!!! Haha... Im loving my december this year... Hohoho~! N still now angau pasal i didnt xpect that cigu greet me bday... *tersipu malu* :p as for the celebration... A simple bbq with the family since malam atu orang sembahyang tahun baru hijrah... So in order to respect the nite simple ja la... But early in the afternoon my teman c wana made a suprise visit n brought me a present... Totally suprise... Pasal aku tdur masa atu... Haha... Thanks wana... Im loving it...

on friday went to the seasons restaurant to make a deposit for our family dinner n post b'day celebration... *senyum riang* n this year aku cuma ada 1 wish saja... *kenyit2 mata*

n tonite sudah 2 hari im not in the talking mode with that guy... Alhamdulillah~! Bukan ku nda bsyukur dengan kehadirannya... Tapi imagine communicating with him sama macam itik dengan ayam communicating... You cakap dengan sindiran or terus terang he just dont get it... Dont say i did not try to accept our differences... But the differences is so big that i had to give up on him....

-end-

older

Waited all my life for this day to come
I feel like letting go
Life goes on
Wasting no more time
So much to be done
Everything works out
So they say
Over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
Yeah, yeah

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of gray and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd want to go
Now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older

Here before my eyes
Many roads ahead
Time for me to choose one way now
If I take a chance
What lies down the road
Feeling so confused
Turned around
On and on
On and on
Yeah, yeah'

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of gray and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd want to go
Now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older

Waited all my life for this day to come
I feel like letting go
Life goes on
Over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
Yeah, yeah'

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of gray and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd want to go
Now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of gray and I feel a weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older

Colbie Caillat

Malam ini~~

Nda bisa melelapkan mata... Sigh...

tadi patang... After makan soto with my mum... I went jogging.. Erm.. No.. slow walking... Psal nda tahan sanak parut.. Bagus kan? Aku sebenarnya lupa about jogging... Psal batah nda makan soto tu... Yatah agree saja tia... Hehehe... N teh c spesel... Wah... Asik deh...

lagi satu... I read the newspaper tadi psal being lonely does affect a person's health... Especially for woman... Dapat increase kemungkinan mendapat breast cancer... Scary~! As you know unhealthy brain does give consequences to your body... For more info pasal atu... You guys read la local news paper yg 9th dec punya...

im hungry... Yes in the middle of the nite... :( susah yo kan jaga badan ani... My daily eating routine... Pagi2 i'll just drink water for breakfast... 2 galas... I ate lunch as usual... Tapi the portion of the rice no more than the size of my fist... Damit bah tangan ku cubatah basar bnyk ku makan... :p after jogging i'll eat dinner sama jua mcm time lunch... Tapi sometimes i skip la the dinner... But not always... Supaya nda dehydrated... I minum air sentiasa... Atu saja... N sekali sekala i spoil myself with those fast food n junk food :D

apa ni alum mau tdur...

Loving my december~~

December so far... Been really nice to me... Syukur Alhamdulillah...

this morning i got a call... Telling me that i am eligible for the job that i've applied sometime last month... In the govenrment sector... But as usual... Mesti ada test n the interviews kan... To select the best applicants... So yea... Wish me luck friends... :D

sebenarnya i totally forgot about it... Bila kana call tadi... I kinda excited... Walaupun aku ada experience at bridex tapi atu just a temporary employment... And ani for me... Its BIG... Its what im going to do in so so many years... Thats also the reason why my recent post mentioning about decision in the making... Shall i choose this or OCS or that... Pening eh... Tapi whatever it is... I wont take forgranted all the rezeki yang kana kurniakan ani... I'll give my best for this... Macam ku xam maths jua effort ku... Hehe...

People out there might say alum jua dapat p show off... Im not showing off im just sharing my happiness n my excitement with my dear friend... Karang kalau ku nda share2 ada yang jauh hati... So the best way is to share the happy news...

tidur...

Such a huge ego...~~

Suppose today i want to call it officially hari malas ku... Tapi *sigh* i woke up at 10 am... Then kana banguni... *ka... Bali buku* iisshh... Bangun tah ni bsiap... Udah smpai skulah my sis kan membali buku... 11.30 am tutup... I was there 11.33 am bah... N the cigu said... Dtg esok saja.. Psal tukang cashier nya balik udah... It ruins hari malas ku jua 2 kan... N its hot today ya... Perfect kan nyasah sluar jeans... Hehehe...

yesterday i went to kuala belait... My mum attended her friend's wedding... Aku just ntar to the place... Bis 2 aku stay at my nini's crib... Since its almost lunch hour... Aku sebagai cucu yang jenis pemedulian... Haha... :p bawa my nini lunch out... Sebenarnya in KB i know the places... Tapi to xactly know the routes to those places atu still im yet to discover... :) so supaya sanang... I just suggest we makan d riviera... My nini awal2 suggest makan pat siring sungai atu tapi she wasnt sure jua buka or nda but ptg2 surely buka...

so went to reviera... My first impression *whhooaaa... So nice the place* its my first time there... Really2 nice... Kalau dating... Romantic 2 sana... Trust me... I've figure out something udah in my mind... *ketawa dlm hati* :D tapi its too bad i didnt get to enjoy the place batah2... Psal its hot n my nini kpanasan udh... N the food... Standard pricing... And the taste EXCELLENT!!!

n kemarin my uncle tanya... Btah udah i didnt see him sal he just got back from holland... Yatah he asked... 'Ko masuk askar? Buang tebiat??...' Hehehe... Malas ku jawap... Ku biar my mum menjawapkn.. Hehe..

n lastly... Our end-of-year annual family dinner is at the seasons restaurant... I dont know... Either xcited or not... Coz i have other place on my mind... :)

Mood nda stabil~~

Its because of the stupid driver... Gila punya orang... I saw that car tapi still clear for me to take the lane... I signal la kan msuk lane atu... Skali bila aku udah msuk that lane orang tua kabur kali udah matanya ah d hon nya aku... Pantang ah ku dbuat catu... Mun ku ilang sabar ah... Tau tah ya 2... Iiisshhh...

earlier today... We went to my uncle's house... Bru turun haji... Touching moment... Ntah nda ku tau why so emotional tadi... N the food was great... :D

n before that incident... Went to stadium... Just to prepare myself before that day come... I love how my skin looks when after workout... So glowy... Heheh.. N plus i want to tone down my perut yang msih comel ani... Hahah... Ckit lagi ah... Sabar... :D now i can wear skinny jeans hohoho... Tapi wait till i get my sexy abs back... ;D

owh ya... Pasal dmalam mendapat berita gumbira dari my friend... Sampai termimpi plang yang aku was in the middle of preparing myself for my own wedding... Banar mimpi indah... Yatah i tell my sister... N ya cakap... Ko tah plang ni yg kn kawin... Hahah... Really bila mendangar bunyi orang upgrading the relationship to the next level... I tend to get really excited... The reason is the preparation dari awal till the wedding day atu walau banyak kan dbuat due to adat tani... Tapi its the most beautiful thing... Besides that person officially becomes someone elses atu makes it even wonderful... Pasal kata dr.fadzillah kamsah... Bersyukur dengan pasangan kamu... Bcause... Not everyone else yang bertuah mendapat pasangan hidup... :)

decision in the making... :)

Movie movie movie~~~

Since abis xam ani... So far i've watched 3 movies... Bnyk 2... Compared to selalunya... Paling last i've been to the movie masa bulan 6 kah?? If im not mistaken lah... Yg tadi i liat ceta jump... Seronok!! I recommend it to those yg stress masa ani... Psal cali cetanya... N ada good looking actors lagi... So a total package... Heheh... Fun la tadi atu...

since my workout kemarin atu... I've sufferd chestburn or heart burn kh?? Yatah... I complain pat my mum... She said... Cuba th pelahan2... Ani mengajut2... Mana nda... Hmm... Well aku jenis nya yang suka push myself supaya nampak hasil nya... So pasal ani alai nda k stadium... Instead alai jalan2... Liat wayang... N oh i got my new pair of jeans udh... Yeehhaa... Cant wait for miri... Kan shopping kasut probably or new clothes...

actually my december had a good start ya... Wweehhee... Cant wait for the next day n the next one... Seronok nye... Esok... Hunting for teh c spesel... :D

Since...~~

Sejak entah brapa lama kh udah ku nda mengexersice kn diri... N baru tadi ku merajinkan diri k stadium.... Seronok... Letih... Aku rasa kurus... Heheh... N pemandangan yg indah :p haha... Atu yang mahal 2 nah... Eh... Cant help it mun drg park sebalah keta ku... Nda jua dapat d elak 2... Haha...

wwooowweee.... December hadir...~~ i aim kan buy 2 pairs of shoes... Peep toe heels sma bellarina flats... Atu saja... For the shoe part... ;p i dont need bags this month... Haha... This month ok... Other month alum tau lagi... Heheh... a pair of jeans would be nice.. N a new clothes... Heheh... Hello! December jua ni... Time to pamper myself... :D sepanjang december ani treat me nice n i'll b nice to you for the rest of the year... Heheh...

oh siapa yg alum liat new moon... Better watch sama your other half la ah... Supaya dapat feel of the love atu... Hehehe... Aku liat sma family... Mana terasa cinta in the air nya... Heheh... Tepaksa ku control my reaction bila meliat c jacob punya hot body 2... ;p hahah...

aku kan share 1 scene lah ah msa aku liat new moon... Kn new moon ani yang dtunggu2 kan d liat... Siapa yg dapat liat time sneak preview atu th yg lucky psal premier nya 3rd dec bru tah main... Aku xpect smua la ni bhave well on their seats... Menghayati jalan ceta... Tapi i hate it when duduk dekat2 dengan teenagers sekarang ani... No offence ah... Tapi banar annoying... Yatah psal dapan ku 'kanak2' bulih drg mencek2 mobile phone msa ceta atu main... Silau kali aa... N menganggu jua 2... Aku dengan selambanya terajang kerusi ah... Pandai eh ya concerntrate tarus... N baik jua aku punya seat sebalah kdalam ujung skali... N my sis yg duduk sebalah kwn 'kanak2' ani... Becerita bh ya psal new moon ah! Mentang2 th udah ya meliat... Awu mun aku sebalah nya... Ada xtra scene kali eh dalam panggung.... Alum lagi part kegatalannya tekluar 2 smbil2 mencek hp nya ah... Ntah eh...

enough... :)

Choices...

Tadi my mum ask me... Of all the jobs application yg i've submitted... Which one is my first choice? I said... Yg mana bgi offer dlu atu la yg i choose... Tapi deep inside... I dont really have a clue... Yang atu kh atau yang ani... Hhmmm...

sebenarnya i never think about it... All i know apply saja ikut qualification... I think i better start give a deeper thought on this matter... Penting woo... Ada kena mengena dengan future...

some people might want to really enjoy their free time... Tapi i really need a job soon... Nda sanggup buang masa drumah... Nothing to do makes me crazy... By next year my sisters start a new job n a new school term... N me?? Apa tah kn ku buat d rumah... Doing house chores? Oh no! Cukup th udah ni cuti ku baru kn seminggu ah... Buntu otak...

candle in the dark
FIFI

bengang!!

Aku bosan dengan cintamu
Aku rasa buang masa
Kau selalu mendustakan cintaku
Aku fikir kau tak searus
Biarkan ku beralih
Biarkan diriku terus bersendiri

Ku tak sanggup engkau setia
Walau jasad dan juga nyawa
Sebagai tanda cintamu padaku katamu

Tak mungkin ku percaya
Kata-kata yang penuh dusta
Hanyalah bibir berkata
Yang memilukan
Menambah bengang rasa hampa
Terus hingga diriku terasa

Cukup berkali kau berkata
Jangan diulang lagi dusta
Jangan kau pujuk hati yang terluka
tak mungkin akan ku kembali
Jika janji sekadar mimpi
Tak mungkin aku sanggup bersama denganmu

akim af7

hari cuti ku... so far~~

walau baru 5 hari berlalu.. tapi so far ok la... ada jua hasil nya... at least nda sia2 catu saja kan... tapi what im actually looking forward is to watch the new moon.... weehheee.... ssoooonnnnn!!!

december is coming up... dear december... please be good to me ya... nothing much i ask for but for you to be a better month saja... *kenyit2 mata*

~~~Even though it seems I have everything.... I don't wanna be a lonely fool~~~

The inside...

Sigh... Wouldnt it be fun kalau abis exam ani ada 'someone' spoiled you with movie dates... Dinner dates... Or just strolling around by the side of the beach... Untuk menenangkan pikiran... Or just spend a lil bit of their time to mendengar rintihan hati... It would be soothing rite?

Berangan sejenak...

Well... Tadi i had a conversation with my mum... Psal kaja thingy... Sebenarnya i wanna apply pat my mum work place for pegawai kewangan... Tapi know what... My mum ckp... Jgn tah apply sna bah... N nda siuk 2 jadi pegawai kewangan... Teranah d office saja... *thinking mode on* banar jua ah... Nda seronok... Psal dri xperience ku... Stay @ d office doing all that job... Hhmmm... Not so very interesting... You have to ikut the boss wants... If nda satisfy mesti buat smpai boss satisfy... Walau secreative mana still jua mun nda ya puas hati... Paksa tah... Tau2 sndiri... :)

bila d pikirkan... I want a job yang dapat travel alot... Cause i LOVE travelling... Jadi stewardess?? Jangan becali eh... :p if not bcause of my eye sight... I might b applying to a pilot... Tapi with nowadays punya technology... I think it can be fixed... Hehe...

ever since high school... When i grow up i want to a forensic expert... Tapi too bad... I dont have any physics... Yatah... Im a lil bit disappointed... Well what to do... Life must go on...

n why i want to join the armed force? Simple... Psal... U wear uniform to work... Proud kali aa... *dreaming* hehehe... N ada chance to travel jua... So... Hehehe...

sebenarnya banyak job opportunities... Tapi terserah pat diri... U want asal ada job n stuck with it for the rest of ur life doing what actually u nda ikhlas doing atau... Find ur dream job n love doing it every second of ur life... Ikhlas bekeraja atu yg penting... Supaya apa yg tani usahakan atu dapat berkat which insya Allah brings happiness yg cukup bermakna... ;)

yours truly
FIFI

Current updates

Its been a while i didnt update this blog... Katakn bz nda jua... Lets just say that lack of idea on what to update... Heheh...

i'd been mentioning about joining the OCS in my recent post... N i've already send the application form since last month... Skalinya... My dad yesterday mentioning about ada intake pengambilan inspector police... He ask me to join it as well... Mcm... Im into army not police... No offence tapi my minat ke arah sana bh... Yatah i said oh ok... Heheh... Tapi Alhamdulillah jua iya nda majal... Since my mum pun back up kan aku... Heheh... Nw all i have to do is just wait for that one important call... N preparing myself physically n mentally... Susah yo... N i havnt start yet... N evryone bising2 udah... 'baik tah ko start.. Krg pancit...' bla bla bla... Hehehe...

exam is coming up... Sigh... Ok... No further xplanation on that :p

well at the moment i 'rapat' this one guy... Totally opposite my dream guy... Well... Ppl might ask... U know his not ur type of guy tapi knapa rapat wif him... So my answer would be...

i like to feel how its like to be with someone yg bukan my dream guy... Its not easy i must say... I try adapt tapi i dunno when it'll last... Bukan kan main2 kan perasaan nya... Tapi im in the learning process... Its safe to say that im no longer short tempered... Weehheee... Back then bila aku rasa nda puas ati i'll say what ever i have in mind regardless it hurts or not... Now... Aku pndai main sindir2 udah.... Sindiran yg somehow works... Hehe... Without menyakitkn hati that is... :)

im happy with my life so far... Walau ada ups n down... Well smua atu mengajar diri ku for a better future... i know i cant impress everyone tapi at least i can learn/get something from them ;)

Final decision in the making...

Borang... Checked
family support... Checked
qualifications... Checked
friends support... Checked
self confidence... Half done
fitness level... Pending

the due date by next week...

the lesson's learned...

Changes

will young

Gotta shake myself up here

I should run away, run away, run away

People say dont even go near

I can see the danger, Im aware, I see the danger

If I go back once again its like I learned nothing

Standing at the front of a queue

Heading for trouble

Hope it changes

Hope my life changes

Gets alright somehow

Oh Im waiting for tomorrow

I hope it changes

Cant you stay the same

Been out of luck for so long

And I dont get much so theres nothing much to lose

Its like a record going round

Yes its going round, going round, going round

I know I should wanna take it off

But I find it hard, why do I find it hard?

I used to have a vision

I was sitting somewhere up there

Looking down on myself

Doing right for once in my life

It changes

Hope my life changes

Gets alright somehow

Oh Im waiting for tomorrow

I hope it changes

Cant you stay the same

Been out of luck for so long

And I dont get much

So theres nothing much to lose

I just need a break

A little one

To get me up to watch the sun

And hey its peaceful here

Hope it changes

Hope my life changes

Gets alright somehow

Oh Im waiting for tomorrow

Hope it changes

Cant you stay the same (cant you stay the same)

Been out of luck for so long (cant you stay the same)

Dont get much so theres nothing much to lose

Changes

Oh Im waiting for tomorrow

Hope it changes

Cant you stay the same

Been out of luck for so long

Hhmmm~

Yesterday... I dreamt the guy.. Whom i missed his smile alot... Mimpi indah brabis... Alhamdulilah.. Heheh... Yatah mood blues ku tebawa2 smpai ari ani... Nw... Melayan perasaan mendgr lagu2 c kaer....

kau tinggal kan memori indah... Sayang~

kini kau hilang dari pandangan mata ku~

*sigh*

on random note... I read somewhere... Your friend shares her good news.. New job... New man... And while you're happy for her... You cant help but feel like a failure at work/love... To overcome this... Look at the fact... Has nothing nice ever happened to you?

banar plng... What it says... Tani ada rezeki masing2... Lambat atu cepat... Datang jua 2 rezeki atu... All we need to do sabar... Berdoa... N berserah...

bebalik pat blues mood ku... *sigh*... Cana ku kan overcome ni?? Liat2 gmbar arah facebook nya?? Kan menagur awkward rasanya... :(

oh well

salam ramadhan
FIFI

*senyum*

U guys know what i do on monday morning? I watched 'syurga cinta'... Feeling brabis jua ku 2 kan? Heheheh... I dont know what was i thinking... Tapi biarin deh... Melayan perasaan d hati... Haha...

owh... Finally aku dapat my fave magazine... Dmana nah ku tjumpa? D airport... Hehe... Bth dah ku nda melepak malam ah... Hm... Kangen jua ku kan menghidu udara malam... Lepak... Cuci2 mata... Hahah...

kemarin we the family sungkai d kb... Seronok jua bnyk makanan... Padahal kana remind jgn th buy bnyk2 psal ada jua bemasak d rumah... Heheh... N aku punya sungkai dmalam kue tiew basah c ah kang... Nice~ n abc $2 yo... Untuk sndiri... Hahah... Brabis jua ku 2... Then mkn sushi... Baik jua bdgn makan mun nda nda ku abis jua 2... Psal bnyk... Kalau d rumah nda ku bdgn makan unless sma kwn2 saja... Yatah kalau d kb cuzn2 ku ada jua yg pndai mkn... Hehe... N sbnrnya aku buy kebab for sahur... Tapi kan... Untuk 3 hari berturut2 aku nda bngun sahur... Yatah hopefully lapas ani mesti bgn eh.. Rugi rasa nya nda sahur atu...

im bored actually... Apath kan ku buat ni... I cant wait actually for my eyeliner yg ku order kan smpai... Kan xperiment ku udh ni... Hopefully ngam dgn kulit ku... N i just found out aku ani perfume freak jua... Baru ari atu aku buy perfume baru for raya... N bru kemarin aku mengorder 2 minyak wangi baru... Giler eh... Atu banar... Tapi aku nda stick with 1 perfume saja... Dlm seminggu atu aku tukar2 smell lah... Supaya nda membazir... :)

next week aku ada test... The second one... Masa yg first atu aku dpt nyawa2 ikan... Bodoh rasa ku... Mcm this is the second time im taking the course n first test udh ku dpt nyawa2 ikan... Yatah hopefully 2nd test ani dpt dkt2 full mark pun jadi lah... :)

n a week b4 hari raya aku planning kan buat pedicure n manicure... Siapa mau join? D mana bisai ah treatment nya? Shop arnd ku dulu supaya worth the money... ;)

salam ramadhan
FIFI

untuk renungan bersama...

wahai para lelaki dan wanita,

Jangan menuntut terlalu tinggi seandainya diri sendiri jelas tidak berupaya.Mengapa mendambakan isteri sehebat Khadijah andai diri tidak semulia Rasulullah ? Mengapa mengharapkan suami setampan Yusof seandainya kasih tak setulus Zulaikha ? Tidak perlu mencari isteri secantik Balqis andai diri tidak sehebat Sulaiman DAN Tidak perlu mencari suami seteguh Ibrahim andai diri tidak sekuat Hajar dan Sarah.

Redhalah atas apa pemberian-Nya....

Terimalah si dia seadanya....

salam ramadhan

FIFI

Happy day~

Hari shopping ku start arnd 9 am... Then blik nya kul 3 nearly 4... Psal kan masak for sungkai lagi... Tired atu memang... Tapi fun... Heheh...

first... Sbelum kkadai mesti k bank dulu... Saving... Bebelanja jua tapi saving jgn lupa... Eseh... Hehehe... Bis 2... K charles n keith mall... Psal my mum tjumpa dgn boss charles n keith ani... N uncle atu ckp... Agath banyak new arrival 2... Hahah... Well the owner atu dgn my mum kaja dulu tapi the kadai manage by his daughter... Tapi b4 msuk kkadai atu... Aku ada tenampak brooch yg bling2... Heheheh.... Apa lagi... Nda ku lepaskan peluang... Then abis urusan jual beli k CK n ada 1 kasut yg mengrab attention ku... Nice~ tapi abit pricey for a student like me... Jadinya aku buy beg nya saja... Heheheh... Clutch bag... Nice the color... Hhmmm... *senyum2 ku ni* hahah...

nxt k de'iyad... Kan liat tudung lh konon... Tapi apa nah... Membali kain!! Hahah... Tapi not for raya... I save it for the special day nanti... Wat day?? Haha... Malas ku reveal... :p since aku lupa apa warna kain raya ku n malas ku mikir i just buy 1 tudong... Yg lain 2 biar tia pkai tudung apa yg ada d rumah ani... :) nxt... K summit... Heheh... Abit disappointed psal nda bnyk kasut tinggi taste ku... Tapi ok la last2 tjumpa jua kasut yg matching dgn warna beg ku... Nda ku duli ku kuar kan beg ah rasa jua kan padankn sma kasut... Tapi i'll wait nxt new arrival... F ada taste ku i'll buy lagi... Sshh jgn d tagur... Hahahha... Masa d summit aku ada suka this bag... Tapi purpose ku just 2 buy for raya... So mayb nxt month... Hehheh... Apa kan... I cant help it.... I know i shouldnt... Tapi it keeps me happy... ;) nxt k arcade mendulur my sis main... Aku nada mood psal aku kan shopping lagi!!! Hahah...

after that planning kan liat wayang... Saja mendulur diri ani... Tapi mcm boring jua... So next face shop... Aku buy mask... Psal mask ku abis... N lip gloss... Msa aku cuba lip gloss atu aku put some arah my lips to test ada alergy reaction kh ni... Skali d helper atu ckp skajap saja tau alergy kh nda?... Diam saja ku... Fyi... Bibir ku super allergic... U put abit saja lipstick kah gloss kah... Mun panas rasanya n tabal rasanya d bibir... Jaga... Mcm c angie tu bibir ku... Hehehe... Sama aku buy perfume... Heheheh....

bis 2 balik!! Sangal wa... Plus kn buy kan brg sungkai for my sis lagi... N i forgot to buy my fave magazine... Capi banar... Aku aher wa mencari... Abis udh magazine atu tmpat ku slalu membali.... Atu la sja yg alum tercapai hajat untuk d miliki... Hopefully aku dpt mencari... F nda... :(

*hint* kalau yg kan membawa ku shopping or minta dgni aku available ni dengan senang hati ku menerima pelawaan itu... Hahaha... :p

salam ramadhan
FIFI

Hari semangat ku~

Awal ku pagi ani... Around 6.++... Smangat kan?

sebenarnya kn... Aku kn shopping ari ani... Hehe.. :p tapi kan im worried kalau masa shopping sma my fren aku tjmpa yg even better... Actuallynya aku nda suka survey dulu bru bali... Know why? Psal if ku survey dulu n nanti membali... Nantinya atu kira a week or so... Mana ada lagi 2 brg ah or nada size... Mental tah ku 2... So f ku rasa sesuai dgn taste ku... I'll just buy it on the spot...

tapi kan i still havnt figure out apa color theme ku for raya ani... I was thinking red plng... Tapi rasa nya aku alum brani kan pkai bold color... Tapi c la krg cana... Mun usulnya lawa... I'll just take it... Tapi other choices i think purple is fine... Fav color i tapi i guess its kind of safe color... Tapi i want to xperiment cikit bh taun ani... Why not kan... Hehe...

oh well...

salam ramadhan
FIFI

Terkenang~

Start tia udh org main badil-badilan... Kangen gue kan main jua... Tapi malas ku mendulur keinginan atu... Simpan saja... Mana tau last week of ramadhan nanti... Hehehe... Suruh babah sponsor... Heheh... :p

btw... I bet tukang buat kuih muih menutup order org udah ni... Psal tmpat ku mengorder tutupnya masa first week ramadhan udh... Udah mengorder kek... Tapi biskut nya alum... Niat d hati kan mencuba buat sendiri... Apa th guna nya buku resepi d bali... N since bnyk free time atu jua kan... Smangat jua aku atu ah... Heheh... Kami adi bradi aiming kan buat yg ada chocolate2... Tapi my mum nda suka chocolate ani psal manis... Tapi in our house kuih moor is a must... Wah smangat jua ku bcerita psal kuih2 raya ani...

bukan apa just to get the festive mood... Alum plng ada rasa mau melapaskan bulan ramadhan ani.... Tapi sekadar meng'xcited'kan diri... Hehe...

aku kan shopping~ shopping~ shopping~.... Gelisah hatiku udah meliat status fb org be'shopping' atu...

salam ramadhan
FIFI

Hari malas ku~

Masa ani aku sedang menikmati hari kemalasan ku... Cuaca yang nyaman... Temprature yang enak... Heheh... Apa kan... :p

due to hanya tinggal 2 courses saja kan d ambil... Class ku nda banyak... 3 hari saja aku perlu dtg k UBD... Which membuat kan aku... Rasa jobless brabis... Kalau dulu suka ku free brabis ani... Now... Nda nyaman rasa ku nada kan dbuat atu... Eseh... Hahaha... Tapi betul... Masa aku temiss out the first 2 weeks of UBD... Bnyak kan d salin... Dengan bangga nya aku dpt siapkan menyalin notes complex analysis... Dalam 1 hari saja... Proud brabis ku... :p heheh...

the other day... I heard this sayings dlm tv... Something like this la bunyinya.. 'jangan la membazir.. F membazir rezeki yg suppose iya dpt kana tarik balik ulih Allah..' when i heard it... Tarus ku... Really?? I've done alot of pembaziran... Yatah since atu especially kalau ku makan... Ckit2 saja ku kaut dulu... Slalu kalau ikut nafsu bnyk2 plng 2... Heheh... Yatah hopefully when elaun ku kuar aku nda membazir... Target ku cuma beg n kasut saja for raya... Plus brooch n tudung... Atu saja ah... Ingati ku mun ku bali lain2 lagi... Ok....

for you guys punya info... My wallpaper pat hp... Is my pics wif kaer masa i saw him d mall... Yatah... Since i admire him alot... Aku slalu show pat my sisters n say nah bf ku... Hensem kan? Hahah... Awal2 drg layan jua... Batah2 drg ckp prasan... Hehehh... Yatah.. My frens asal liat my hp... Ada yang tanya... Siapa ni? Bf mu kah? I said no... C kaer... Tapi mua drg mcm nda caya.... N masa sungkai bridex ari atu one of my fren ckp i look different... She said ada bf ko udh kah?? Senyum saja ku... Like... Apa kan? Heheh...

cant wait kan sungkai dluar with the girls... Hopefully smua dpt dtg... Meriah jua suasana sungkai d bulan ramadhan ani... Heheh...

bh smpai d sini sja dulu... Kan k dpur menulung memasak... Ok...

salam ramadhan
FIFI

Here i go again...

Its sunday n its the 2nd day of the fasting month... Well whats been happening to me since my last post? Hhmmm... Much i guess...

BRIDEX 2009 is finally over... Alhamdulillah... It went well... My experience as a support staff in the operations department? Ada ups n downs nya... Ada kan menangis moment... Ada happy moment... Ada kan bekelaie moment... Ada pissed off moment... Ada rasa being left out moment... Tapi hey i learnt alot... ALOT!... Merasa jua ku d marahi atas sebab kesalahan diri mahupun bukan... Terima saja seadanya... Pokok nya nda bulih give up lh... Mesti tahan... Its not easy... But ia mengajar erti berdikari... Org ckp siuk jua 2 @ least merasa bekaja for the international event... Awu banar... I wont trade the experience i had with anything in this world... And i wont care much about the payment indeed.. And the most thing that i really2 miss is the bzness atu lh... Xpecially masa built up...

n to tell u guys the truth... Not much picture taking from me... Busy meh... Mencuri masa ckit2 saja to enjoy the moment... Tapi to really enjoy it... No time... :)

enough of that...

my current interest... Make up... Kes nada kaja wa aku ah... Masa ani practice kan melawa kan my eye lining technique n be'mascara' susah yo for me yg beginner ani... Aku ani sebenarnya nda plng rajin kan look pretty... Tapi for the sake of making my $1++ spending on make up worth it... Jadinya... I'll make it a habit la... Yatah magazine yg ku collect ku jadikan sebagai buku panduan... Slowly... Masa ani basic make up saja... Bila ku udah pandai ckit... I'll do more xperiment on color... Hehehe...

and owh ya... These few days several of my fren yg aku btah dah nda communicate with been asking about my love life... Mcm... I know people do sometimes concern... Tapi i dont have any updates regarding that... So much i want to share... Tapi sorry... Nada... :) walaupun sunyi tapi i'm happy with what i have now... Thank You... :) tapi if someone out there wants to give it as a Raya surprise... I'll take it... Hahah... :p

Salam Ramadhan
FIFI

sunday morning...

how's life?? doing great?? or its a so-so...??

well mine is oookkk... i really miss my comfort zone... tapi sampai bila i want to stay comfortable without challenging my own strength... i always wonder why people nda mau take a challenge yg d luar dari their comfort zone... sedang kan that challenge at the end offering something rewarding.... why?? the other day one fren of mine had to quit her job psal kan continue her study... so the department cari penganti lah ah... n org2 yg d pilih untuk menganti kedia ani sorg2 nda sanggup... banar plng kaja nya atu have to meet people... pokok nya dealing with people lah.... n now ada dh penganti nya... n the reward of being taking the challenge atu... the person kana bagi permanent job... bukan sementara... bisai jua 2 kan...


semoga saja kan ku dapati yg tulus mencintai ku.... :)

I feel bad....

Just got back from a party... Its not an ordinary one... Its the party... Weird thing is... Im d only one yg didnt drink... Baik jua aku nda btudung... F nda feel awkward jua 2 kan... Actually i have a wild imagination plng want 2 try 2 drink n smoke... Tapi tadi dpn2 mata udh... I refuse.... No la... Its not my way of life... I respect la org lain its their way of having fun... But me just mingling wif ppl is enough udh... :)

ok stop on that...

my work so far ok ler... Its not fun yet... Tunggu la till the build up n all the xhibitor is coming... Baru tah seronok kali... Hehehe... Actually i dun want to really share la psal takut ku tmention thing yg sensetive... Psal i've signed a contract... 5 taun nda bulih share confidential about my work.... Yatah...

n tadi my so called bos said i look different without tudong... I said really?? Hahaaha... Sebenarnya aku tau yg aku look different f not wearing tudong... Sal before ani pun bnyk org tagur... Hehe... Angkat bakul ku ckit... Hahaha... I love wearing tudong psal bgi ku smart...

its time 2 sleep...

nite2...

I tell you...

Sorry alum ku tshare about my trip 2 KK... Since balik dri sana aku alum smpai2 nya meng-conquer internet... Kana pajak ulih org2 yg ada dlm rumah ani... Few photos i like 2 share... Gerenti ada yang... Well... Let it be a surprise... Hehehe... ;p

actually aku kn tdur th ni... But b4 atu... Aku retrieve some of my inbox dlm hp ani... Kn membaca balik msg yg kna ntar tadi pagi... Heheh... Skali bnyk isi nya inbox ani so i would like to delete.... Sekalinya... Aku tbaca sikit msg dri someone... Rupanya nda ku delete msg atu... Yatah nw... My heart racing faster... Hhhmmm..... Why oh why....

the other day i went for an interview... Yg ganjil nya.. U attend briefing dulu... Then bru interview... Slalu f kna pnggil briefing ani automatically u think kana accept bkaja jua kan 2... Rupanya nda.... It was ok plng... Tapi aku ada problem buat eye contact saja... Its my problem btw... Kalau ku bckp aku nda pndai kan liat mua org... Mata ku wander around... Hopefully ok la...

season org kawin datang lagi... Yatah masa nya soalan2 yang membuat ku senyum nda ikhlas kana tanyakan ni... Kalau org yg aku nda biasa... Aku just jwb... Ah alum lagi eh... Kaja dulu... Kalau yg sadang biasa... Cari usin dulu... :) n kalau yg ku biasa banar2... Aku jwb... Aku bah kan kawin tapi laki wa alum ada... Cana tah jua... Paksa tah mencari dulu... Hahahha...

personally i think sebuah perkahwinan atu something beautiful... To find that someone who will make the wedding itself complete and beautiful atu yg challenging...

i wanna go to sabah again... Kalau th aku bisa.. I'll go there n stay as long as i want... Untuk holiday plng saja 2... Hehehe... Nda ku sanggup lama2 banar... Rindu ku kan rumah ku d sini... Kwn2 ku g... Sian jua 2 drg temimpi2 kn aku sal rindu.... Hahahahha... :p y i love 2 travel... Pasal the problems n things that happen b4 travelling atu... I completely forgot about it tu as soon as i come back home... Banar... Yatah... Sebenarnya janji away from my normal daily life.... Mcm a yr ago... I migrate a while k KB at my granny... After that alhamdulillah... N please note that while away atu jangan tah mengharap ku kan membawa ole2 ah... Bukan ku karit... Tapi usually nya slagi barang yg ku hajati atu alum ku dapat... Selagi atu aku nda pikir barang untuk org... Unless my family.... So... :)

no superwomen
FIFI

berbual....

~~~

lawa???

hehehehehe

unwell :)

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

life~

hhmm... what should i share here with you people.... lets see...

nda g batah aku kan k KK.... yyeeaaayyy~ im looking forward berabis ni.... hehehe... few days left.... i like to travel... so no matter how short or long the distance... i dont mind... janji travel... hehehe...

n kemarin... i went to KB to visit my nini... with no plan what so ever.... tarus ja k KB... with my parents that is... well my mum tesliur cendol c ah kang... hehehe.... well if u kb-ian... will know d mana 2... hehehe... tapi too bad gerai nya tutup... well sunday... mana jua ya ada... so gerai yg d sebalah nya saja.... sedap yyooo.... we order cucur2an... rojak... n sotong kangkung... n abc... heheheheh... its a must eat tu when u went to KB... heheh... and sekalinya my mum craving kn makan mee putih nya... n aku pun jua tesliur... hhmm... n then kana mention lagi talur itam.... aaiiyyooo.... lagi tah d mana kan mencari... the last time i had it masa gerai siring sungai masih ada.... ani mana lagi ada.... waduh... hahahahaha..... ok enough.... hahahah....

sambil2 i blogging ani... i sedang membuat macaroni cheese tuna... requested by... my sister... hehehe.... for our breakfast... kalau kana request saja ku membuat.... mun nama nya voluntarily... i ada rasa malas sikit... hehehe...

the weather is nice outside... hopefully nda panas banar lah ah today... i wanna go out... but as usual... unknown destination... hehehe.... sebenarnya i crave kan makan fish n chips... malas ku masak wa... ada plng d freezer atu... hahahaha... pasal i watched little people big world tu drg c jer had dinner with kristen on their 1st yr anniversary.... nyaman usul fish n chips nya ah... hhmm...

im abit semangat today... thats why jua i blog... slalu malas wa nada motivation... hehehe.... last nite i had a dream pasal someone that u might know... n in that dream iya minta my no... mcm... senyum ku eh... hahaha... wish it was real... krg tah ku add FB nya... hehehe.....

not crazy
FIFI

actually......~

sebenarnya kan....

aku...

the whole day...

feeling...

weird...

reasons.....

im nervous about tomorrow...

[i consider it as an outing wif a fren but i guess some might call it a date]...

but...

at the same time...

im looking forward for tomorrow...

sigh~


sorry people im not being myself lately...

Romantic kh nda???

Ok... Ladies... What type of guy would you prefer?? Romantic kind of guy atau not?

haha... Out of the blues bh ku terfikir about this... Bila d pikir2... I very much prefer yg nda romantic... Pasal i believe they are true to their heart... Kalau yg romantic 2 is evry ladies dream... Tapi kadang2 mcm d ragui... Hahahah... Ok guys no offence... This is only my thought based on my previous xperience... :) ok sebenarnya aku ani kan meluah kn isi hati yg alum batah terpendam... I blog this out pasal aku malas kn mengadu balik2 pat different fren of mine... Since they read my blog bh tarus kan tia... Girls you know who u are... After this ada comment arah inbox FB ah... ;) heheh....

ok actually i dlm process mengenali hati seorang insan... Hahaha... Nda pyh ku ceta lah ah cna ku kenal... Krg ada pengossip pyh ku mengelak... Hahah... 1 saja syarat ku gto iya... Janji ikhlas... U knw in real life ani ada 2 yg nda ikhlas janji bgf saja... Yes things like this do xist... Yatah sekalinya... I like his way la... Senang deh berbicara sama kdia ani... Not too pushy.. Tapi 1 saja... Jenis nya kasar... Ertinya iya ani nada usul2nya romantic la... His caring tho... Selalu kalau jenis yg abit kasar ani... I selalu 'reject' tapi ku pertimbangkan pasal minat kami sama... N plus its hard for me xpecially kn mencari lelaki yg minat maths... So kira atu 1 of his best asset la... Yatah masalah ku.. Whenever i feel like want to talk with him his not there n when i dont feel like it ia ada... Which make me kan go i dont know crazy nda jua... Garam hati... Apa ertinya kan ni?? N aku realise i now like to listen lagu something about missing someone... Yatah... Sigh!!

clueless~
FIFI

get to know me better~

i took personal traits by birth month quiz on Facebook... so below are my results:

Loyal and generous
Patriotic
Active in games and interactions
Impatient and hasty
Ambitious
Influential in organizations
Fun to be with
Loves to socialize
Loves praises
Loves attention
Loves to be loved
Honest and trustworthy
Not pretending
Short tempered
Changing personality
Not egoistic
Takes high pride in oneself
Hates restrictions
Loves to joke
Good sense of humor
Good Logic

the results are true alright... at least for me... i dont know if people around me agrees or not... coz different people got different views on other people kan... yatah... hehe

kes nda mau tidur bah ni.... haha

my sunday morning~

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the above pics yg sempat ku capture waktu lepak kajap d pantai jerudong near JPMC area... nice tho the place... i might be going there again in the near future...

my morning tadi start at 6 am... awu awal ku bangun... we ada plan kan jogging at belapan in berakas... yatah semangat awal bangun... bth2 besiap arnd 6.40 we btulak dri rumah n smpai sana... bulih la ramai org... alum panas banar la masa kami smpai atu... apa jua ganya cahaya matahari pagi... its good jua for the skin... ada vitamin K... hehe... aku nda belari la... malu i.. hahaha... im not that fit at the moment... krg kepisan baru 1 round kan balik tia mana lawa 2... hahaha... i just walk la... awal2 slow walk then bru tah laju sikit.... before 8 kami leave the place... n went to serusop for makan time... hahaha... i wont mention la the kadai's name... yg penting... nda NYAMAN!!!!! makanan nya.... even teh tarik nya mcm apa rasa nya ah.... ada selected makanan ja yg nyaman sana atu... ok enuf complaining... then after makan kami suggest arah my dad round arah pantai jerudong near the JPMC... pasal nice bh the environment... n we saw tadi sana ramai la org mancing... udah d sana atu we ada menyinggah jua meliat kuda... nice~ aku mau pigang tadi kuda ah... tapi ya lapar masa atu... so takut ku krg trajang nya... hahahah... i pernah naik kuda once dulu time ku damit... time 2 babah masih askar... ani time basar ani mau jua ku merasa g naik kuda... berapa kan harga kuda ah? know what i even suggest my mum suruh bali kuda sepasang.... hahahaha..... since space blakang rumah luas masih.... hhahaha....
n on the way home... kami menyinggah k beribi membali ice cream... since cgu nisa introduce that ice cream to me... nyanyat dang ku membali.... hahaha... nda tah ku kira jauh... yg penting SEDAP!!!!!.... hehehe...

that is all for my morning.... n the rest of the day stay at home.... panas aa hari atu... nda siuk kan bejalan2... i craving kan makan piza eh... since start cuti ani... i ate alot!!! hahaha.... smpai kna tagurkan ulih my sis udah makan saja... yatah nda ku sabar kan start kaja... batah jua kana call ani eh.... its anytime soon.... yatah hp selalu d sisi ku... hehehe.... since aku semangat kan kaja ani... why not i let you my readers jadi judge ah on me wearing office wear.... hahaha... bah i'll upload the pics sometime soon....

till then...
FIFI

My day...

Here's an update on my friday...

tadi me and my sister went to the briefing regarding my job... Bh2 i reveal lah ah what... Its becoming a volunteer for Brid Ex... Happy?? Hahaha... I really want this so badly psal ia international event... Banyk country yg involve... N we the volunteer ani repesenting Brunei la... Proud dang rasanya... Heheh... So tadi the briefing went ok... Meningkat semangat ku yg brkobar2... Hahah... Ever since my TP aku punya confident level to talk n xpress my idea or thought in front of people is very HIGH!.. Jadinya tadi aku ani nda segan menjawap soalan yg kna tanya... Sekalinya nah malar plng ku kna tanya... Hahaha... They evn now know my name... Hopefully they will always remember... Hahaha.... I really want this to be permanent... :p

here are some of my view about certain things la pasal tadi... No offence ok... Ani my personal thought saja... Im not perfect either...

ok... Masa kana call they told us to wear bju kurung or work attire... Color black or red... So me n my sis tadi wear bju kurung n smart... My dear fren u knw how i dress up kalau kn k ubd kn? Smart right... Hahah... :p sekali to our suprise... Ada yg nda wear the dress code kna suruh atu... N even ada yg nda smart.... Mcm eh this is how u wear kah? No wonder u dont have a job till now... For ur info yg volunteer ani mesti nada attached with any job responsibility... So bnyknya penganggur la... I knw ani just voluntery work tapi be presentable la since this is under govt... Bh enuf said... Next... Masa kna suruh introduce diri sndiri i kana suruh introduce dulu in my group... Nda pyh ku gtau knapa u know y... Hahaha... Yatah n my other frens ani mcm kana suruh bsar kn suara drg masa introduce atu... Dui... Sama jua.... Mcm apa kan??!! Cakap bah cakap!!! Waktu kecil nda mau mampus udah basar nyusah kn urang... Hahahaha.... Balik2 udah kna remind... You have to be serious n confident mesti ada to join this... Mun kan malu2 n nda serious agatah balik... Nah... Cubatah... Nda ku phm eh....

n aku honestly nda pikir pasal the payment... I know its given p nda ku kisah the amount janji cukup untuk ku mkn n minyak keta its fine with me... Namanya jua volunteer kan? N i just want to gain xperience... So masa kna tanya siapa yg nda kisah about the payment... You know semua angkat tangan... Ok fine... Sekali masa kna groupkan... Ada this lady tanya aku... Nda kna gtau ah brapa elaun tani... Tadi xcen2 saja ku angkat tangan masa kna tanya ah... Diam ku saja... P dlm hati... Dang talo jua ko ani... Ktara bh nda ikhlas kn bekaja... Usin saja d pikiran.... Bh ok...

n what im more xcited on is kami kana bgi training bemake up... Awu betul nda ku tipu ni... Hahahaha.... N time kaja nanti pkai office attire... Aku shopping tadi... Nda ku sbr kn makai... Hahahah.... Atu saja dulu ah....

berhenti bermain dengan hatiku *translate it in english* hahaha
FIFI

i'm bbbaaaaccckkk!!!!!!

hahaha.... lama jua ah aku nda melawat blog ku ani... well what's happening for the past few days....

• TP is finally over... [yes!!!!!]
• i got a part time job as a..... *isi kan jawapan yg appropriate* in a finance department at *isikan jawapan yg appropriate* which start ESOK!!!!!!! [Alhamdulillah]

atu saja yg major news lah..... yg minor2 atu malas ku share... hehehe... n i might not be able to join the family vacation to KK due to my part time job atu.... im looking forward plng for the KK atu but hey im more xcited kan dapat kaja atu more than anything at this moment.... why am i xcited pasal at least i get work xperience in the finance field and something la... im not going to share till im very ready to share.... bukan ku karit krg kana ucap telampau confident... hahahah.....

i just want to share lah abit on how i get it ah.. the journey so far.. hahaha... well i know this job dari career fair yg being held baru2 ani.. so i ask my sis join jua since iya banar2 kan mau cari keraja.... so ia dulu ntar the cv since she prepared it.... aku nda ntar d cv with my sis pasal i nda xpect kan minta kaja since my intention kn dgni my sis saja.... lagipun im not graduating n mana ada jua org kan ambil part time just for 3 months... kan.... but this job really caught my heart la... udah balik k rumah tarus ku mencari sijil2 lama... yg aku sndiri nda tau d mana ku menaruh... nah skali nya dapat tarus... ilang rasa malas mencari ah... hahahahha..... i update my cv yg pernah ku buat time A level dulu... n that afternoon ku ntar tah k booth drg atu.... after few weeks menunggu i got a phone call dri my mum... masa 2 aku d skulah... awu nda g sabar menunggu smpai k rumah.... hehehe... she said my sis dapat that job without interview... n i ask... aku???? n my mum said my name nada on the applying list... mcm eh aku ntar jua udah cana bulih nada... n aku call that place n a guy said really nada drg terima my borang... n im guessing that lady masa ku ngantar atu tmiss place... [gila!!!!] n the guy ask me to meet him at his office later in the afternoon... n when i got there.... voila! dapat... my sis in the marketing dept n aku finance dept.... [Alhamdulillah]

my personal thought ah.... f you work on the front desk atu cuba tah jangan cuai... people really giving their hopes n dreams on that borang then tau2 u misplace it..... ani baik bah aku tau.... mun aku nda tau..... disappointed jua ku 2...

with all the love in the world
FIFI

Kangen ya??

Now im in a mood kan update blog... Well kmana ku menghilang for the past few days... Ada plng... Not busy... Its just that im more into FB... Haha... Teraddicted... So apa ada sepanjang ku menghilangkan diri... Well i went to miri for a shopping trip... I was invite plng ulih cgu nisa... Walaupun budget kurang but for the sake of buang stress n spending almost the whole day sama frens... Its worth it... :D the picture during the miri trip cek pat FB saya ah... Malas ku upload sini... Hehe...

owh... Aku ada kna observe ulih my CT... Now ok lah comment nya... Aku cuba ambil point using ICT... Hahah... Pkai geometer sketchpad ku ngajar geometry... Cool ah... Hahah... Bangga diri... Tapi kalam kabut abis btinggalan brg ku... Baik jua bapa ku mau ngantarkn plus rumah kami nda jauh... Mun nda ncur eh lesson ku... P i still didnt knw my grade tho from both my CT... I bought something for my CTs tapi aku mau ada smthing yg special to make them remember me... Hahaha... P apa ah... For my students lagi... Apa bisai for them to remember me...

n plus kemarin ada kmpen kebersihan for all the teachers in SMB... Kami punya department which is maths 2 block kan d bersih kan... Nda bth la since nda kamah banar... Fun... P ngalih... Later that afternoon... Main netball... Pancit eh... Batah nda sport... Skali kana bwa main... Ntam tahan saja tia.... Plus aku main ganas ah... Abis mua org n kpala org tkana ulih ku... Mana ku sengaja... Since after main lapar parut yatah makan makanan yg sihat... I plus 2 frens went sushi-ing.... P nda ku menikmati banar2... I was in a rush kan fetch my mum @ home n my sis @ work... Atu F1 ku tarus... Eheheh...

well this final week ani i want to maximise my time for the school... Since nda g lama ah... I know im gonna miss all the experience n activity harian n the teachers... Walaupun tiring tapi still fun n enjoy la d SMB atu... Kalau ku kna posting ksana i'll definitely take the chance... Nda ku menulak 2... Hehe...

the one that you are missing... (hahahah)
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Hi!

Hello people..... Today's post i wont touch on my work lah ah... Boring!! Haha... Tapi aku mention cikit lah aa... Kami temasuk udah dlm politik skulah... Haha... Maksud nya... Kami ktempisan udah politik d skulah atu.... Ada kah patut kami kna ucap nda active... Padahal kami kalau ada acara dtg jua... Kalau nda datang pun pasal ada hal... Xtra class n so on... Sekali 2 pun pasal 'malas'... Apa kan... Kami teacher in training yg penting banar cara kami ngajar jua... Ct kami nda kisah pun... Ya plng mengada2... Nda plng ku tau siapa... P cuba tah nda puas hati bah kami kana ucap catu... Considerate sikit dih... Ingat kami ani robot kah apa... Mun kul 5 bru balik krumah pukul brapa kan menyiapkan kaja kan d ajar esok... Drg ok la cgu xperience... Kami yg baru2 ani... Yatah bias 2 nama nya... Duh!

d malam ada one scene dari ceta cina dmalam really touch me la... I cried... :p awu nangis ku... Hahaha... Bini nya atu spy... N lakinya tau udah la iya spy atu... Ya marah pasal bininya atu nda honest... The laki tau the bini spy dari his so called best fren gtau... Back stabber lah... Benci jua i 2... Cut the story short bini nya tau lakinya kan kana bunuh so she protect him la since bininya ani pndai kung fu.... Unexpectedly bininya tekana some kind of peluru la... Beracun... Yatah powerful racun... Cut the story short lagi... Yang buat ku nangis lakinya nangis n said aku nda mau org lain aku mau ko saja... Waduh... Gila... Nangis eh... Masa 2 bini nya ckp ya suruh lakinya kawin lain after ya mati atu la... Sian ah... lakinya atu naughty plng sikit... Iya setia plng pat bininya... Tapi tau la guys... Naughty2 cikit... N aku suka laki nya ah... Manja berabis... Hahaha... Gals u know what i mean kan... Hahaha....

siuk eh org yang dapt grade A for their tp... So far yg ku tau 3 org udah... Aku mau... Hhmm... Cana aku kan improve ah...

atu saja kn tdur i... :)

B-o-s-a-n-!-!

Yupz... Thats what im feeling now.... Everything!! Macam... Apa kan... Nada yang interesting n menyanang kan hati kah?? Shopping therapy much needed now... Really... Nda saya sabar ni...

my sister kan bawa k career fair kah nama nya 2... Jumaat ani... Iya cakap supaya aku tau what job to apply... Well... Honestly... Bnar ni honestly... Bukan ku ambung ah... Aku tau udah kaja kan ku apply... Banar plng nda salah surveying... Tapi the more job variety makin paning ku memilih... So far i had 4 type of jobs i would like to apply... Atu pun macam aku mau banar2 cuba this four... Hahaha... Bulih kah 2?? All in one bh job atu... Bisa??? Im positively believe aku dapat pulang this kind of job pasal my degree applicable jua kan... Oh wait its more like betambah 3 more jobs i had in mind... Really... Serius ni...

too many things i had in mind but nothing can convince me and lead me too true happiness... As for now i mean...

:)
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Syukur!!

Know what? I left my laptop @ school on thursday unintentionaly... Seriously... I totally forgot about the laptop and when i unload my school stuff from the car when i was about to fetch my mum from work... Then i realise that i left that laptop... Hm.... Panic la i... After fetching my sis from ugama school then i went to smb... But unfortunately the door locked... So i just pray that it'll be safe... But my heart pounds even harder when today approach... Seriously... I pray all the way to smb... Luckily the laptop is safe... Still exist... Hehehe.... Nyaman hati alai tarus.... Nda g i kabak2... :D

owh i got hi-tea voucher for two compliment from taib... Yatah mencari partner jua ku ni... I mean a date... Hahaha.... Any of the above will do actually... Siapa baik sama aku pandai mengampu... Yatah yang ku pilih.... Hahaha... Cam banar bah aku ah.... D empire lai... :D hehehe....

im bored... Nada kan ku buat actually ni... No more paper to mark... Apa tah ni... Ada kaja kosong kah lagi... Hahaha...

honestly xperience jadi cigu ani give a positive impact to me... It gives me courage to speak in front of strangers... Selalu aku ani pemalu i dont usually talk in front of stranger f ckp pun malu2... :) i usually biar org give their opinion n i just listen... Kan menyampuk pun f im really2 confident... Nw... Im confident all the way... U ask me i give the answer without hasitating... :) siuk la... Macam positive berabis lh ku... N the best part is i am able to control my anger udah nda g short tempered banar... Hehe... Kira teaching ani my anger management lah... Hehehe.... I dont understand la f u jadi cgu p still malu2 to speak or approach ppl... Macam... Ur confident level atu mana?? Just in class saja kah just becoz drg younger than u bru tah u confident... Hm... Mana saja lah... Sorang2 lain... This is just my thought... :)

i might be going for a vacation in june with the family... Yeay!! Looking forward ku berabis ni.... Batah eh june ani... Hahaha.... Hopefully aku dapat kaja by next year so that i'll be able to go to dubai for vacation... 1st prioprity tu f udah dpt kaja... ;)

yours truly
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Heheh...

Batah ah nda ku mengupdate... Nda plng busy... Its just that im addicted to FB... Hehe... Terabai tia blog ku ani...

my students were having their MYE this week for two weeks jadinya for two weeks atu jua aku officially free... Xcept for marking their paper... It takes me to mark their paper two 3 days to complete.... Imagine that... N the result really frusts me... Banar.... Nda drg belajar kh?? What else drg mau... Question plus the working almost the same given... Nda jua help them to get good result... Ntah nda ku tau apa kah future drg nanti... Aku rasa kan give up udah meliat results drg atu... N guess what... They requested an xtra class... N aku yg prepare the question... Mana demanding tu.... Mana ku melayan tu tadi... They dont want to ask me personally... Malas th ku... f nt pasal people arnd me malas tah ku membuat xtra class... Baik kan aku ani... Im willing to help them tapi apa effort drg kan tolong diri drg sendiri??? F ada parents teacher meet... Nda ku btapis g tu ah... Semua tah ku keluarkan isi hati ani... Spoil kids!!!!

sedih bh liat kids nowadays... Banar th... Cana th our country future 2 nanti... Ingau jua ku 2...

luahan hati ku...
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There is always another mountain...

My students yg xam but i feel the burden... I hate this feelings... Student ani telampau mengharap arah tani... Lusa xam but still menunggu cigu to do a revision for them...

i've downloaded few new song... Yang currently selalu d radio... Aku nda tau baru kah nda pasal aku jarang dgr radio... Hehehe... No malay songs... Tapi ada 1 lagu aku masih cari... F ku dpt baru th ku share... Haha...

its safe to say that i've lost one of my inspiration... I like to read this one blog... Sekali... Iya lock... Jadi private.... Waduh... Its a must tho to read that blog... Sekalinya nada... Bah jangan tah... Hehehe....

I..
- do respect apa saja tanggapan org.. Any jokes people are playing... Tapi it do hurts me personally...

-dont like mengharap on something... Pasal selalu i do it turned out to dissapoint me alot... Biar tia go with the flow... Its not about what is waiting me on the other side its about the journey to reach that other side...

sometimes i have to lose to remind me on how precious every chances are...

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Be back soon... :)

Sorry peeps.. Im not in a mood to share my side of the story... Really... Im xhausted with the TP thingy... I am constantly going to bed late... So i will not be updating this blog at least for the next couple of days.... Banar... My social life going down... Heavy workload... Pasal my students will be having their mid yr xam... N my mate keep on teasing me with one of the colleague... Awu teman... Ada cerita baru.... Nanti ku share.... I dont know whats happening to me... If a guy mula rapat i tend to shut them off from my brain... Aku sadar... Yatah aku nda tau kenapa aku buat catu... Whats happening to me....

almost mentally ill... (aste)
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What you are??

Baru ku balik ni... Dari sight seeing d ubd... Hahah... Aku menguruskan the unfinish business... N aku smpat mengadu pat my supervisor... Yes iya support aku... Hahah... Wahai teman seperjuangan ku... Aku ngadu pasal last semester tani bnyk ah... Iya pun surprise pasal katanya banyak 2... N ya ckp complex analysis sanang... Bulih?? Hahaha... Batah lagi 2 eh aku melepak sama ijk... Haha... Smpai iya malar liat jam nya... Hahaha...

its been long time aku nda k ubd... Atu ngalih bejalan... Dari parking keta dkt shbie smpai k shbie atu pun sudah kepisan... Nama nya nda fit... Heheh... Bis 2 k fos g... Waduh... Aku jmpa anderson... Aku gtau aku lupa code no mechanics bah... Tawa kan nya... Capi... Paning ku ni n xhausted berabis... Bulih ku nda k skulah kh esok?? Oh hjh mijah... I miss u... Hahaha... Atu c ijk might be coming to ur school soon... Nda tau bila... Iya dtg k skulah ku thurs... Final grading yo... Nervous jua alai 2... Hahaha... Baik jua ku jmpa iya tadi... Pasal iya te'miss place' g timetable ku... Mun nda esok jua ya dtg 2...

bh atu saja... Kn tidur ku...

M-e-n-t-a-l-!-!

During class tadi... The last 2 period... Maths kan 2 subject nya... Ada one part atu aku suruh d student solve 1 problem... Aku xpect drg lakas buat pasal drg pernah belajar... N ckit saja... Juz 1 soalan... Apa jua ganya indices... Sekali aku ckp sudah?... N ada 1 student ckp alum... N i said siapa yang slow atu... Sekali ada this student... Yg duduk front row... Girl cakap... Nda jua pyh ckp catu kali ah... Nda jua sama sorang2... Masalah nya ada ct ku!!! N... Yg lain sudah siap... Nda kan ku slow down just pasal sorg say no!!... Pasal apa nah ya trasa hati... Pasal iya lambat menyalin... N i think ia totally shut down kalau maths ani... Bulih b4 atu ya ckp batah eh kan balik ani... **** kan?? Banar... Aku ani baik udah ah.... Aku nampak iya bmobile nda ku menagur which i know im suppose 2 tagur... Eh garam ati ku ni banar tah... Ya xpect aku ani baik lah mcm my colleague... Different ah... Please!!... Esok ada xtra class drg... Jangan tah ya dtg... Totally shut down ku jua arahnya... The other day aku shut down jua arah this 1 gal pasal iya compare aku wif my ct... Ani neutral pasal aku nda tau rupanya ya xpress student n nda pernah belajar that lesson... Ok... Nada mood ku tarus.... Salah2 kan aku mengajar the proper way to learn maths sekali the student totally nda accept...

****
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Berbicara...

Well... Apa ada ah... Oh.. Ya... Last nite was great... Truly great... I enjoyed the nite... Really... Haha... Majal... Semua lah great... The food... The performance... Last nite we went back home just before midnite... Slalu aku ani mun aher... Mengusut cikit... Kan tidur tia... Sangal tia duduk atu... P d malam... Just perfect... Nda ku bnyk ulah... Haha... The uncle punya family lagi sporting brabis... They sang.. They dance... Drg nari lagu jai ho n poco poco... Haha... The cake was lovely... D malam... I ate alot... Banar tah... Org abis udh makan aku still munching the food... Hehe...

as usual org tua2 punya soalan... Anak?? Haha... Awu buat2 ayu ku d malam... :p aku ndang ayu plng... P d labih kan ckit.... Hahaha.... N btw... Mingling with business minded people really an eye opener... No wonder drg 2 kaya... Hhmm...

atu saja update ku... I feel pressurise abit... Rasa jua kn ngabis kn syllabus for the student's upcoming xam...

till my next post people~
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before going to school....

sampat lagi ku posing before kan k skulah... haha...
are you thinking what i am thinking? makin 'sihat' kan?

i think pasal hormone change... yatah this morning during breakfast i ate alot!!! banar... i had ayam goreng... cereal of 2 jenis... mee goreng.... buah... egg tart... kek lapis... hahaha... atu banar... during lunch hour... im taking my nap... but after that... i ate cereal lagi... hahaha... p still aku kelaparan... lapas blogging ani aku kan makan..... apa nah... nasi... hehehehe.....

and.... later tonite im going to polo club... ada farewell dinner for my mum's kira x bos lh... my dad malas.. plus sakit gigi... so... yyeaayy... sebenar nya aku awal2 udh mau ikut... sekali tadi kana offer... yes!!! hahaha... hopefully i get to snap some pictures... n i heard ada karaoke... haha... aku menyanyi publicly??? yea rite... hehehe....

eh capi baru ku ingat... i havent done my LP for tomorrow... hahaha... well... kan membuat tah ku ni... :p

yours truly
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this is what i get......

this morning waktu membelai2 c emur mama ku... ani yang ku dapat... kana kakai... nda kan ketulahan 2 punya ucing.... capi kan... ntah lain lah jenis nya c emur atu... slalu kalau ucing manja d belai mau lah tidur... ani nda mengakai... its common for us udah... its nothing... ahahah...

Shy lil gal~

Seriously?? Haha... Me? Lil? Menipu jua 2 kan... N me shy?? Awu atu baru tah lurus... Yup i admit... P nda plng sampai malu malu ... (isi sndiri) haha... Just aku bsopan bah... Adat wanita pemalu... Yea.. Hehe...

boring ku sebenarnya... If ada club malam ah d brunei ani... Mengayau ku... Haha... Going to club nda jua semestinya you buat yang negative2... Bwa menari n with loud music... Bulih buat stress free... Kan... Once in a while bah... Kan merasa ku... Jeles ku dangar ceta2 mama ku atu... Masa masih muda ani jua... Ooppsss... Hahah...

seriously... Single ladies!! What are you people doing on saturday nite??? After a year... Baru ku banar2 rasa lonely... Its fun tho being single dari segi bekawan pun bebas... You kemana2 pun relax saja... Tapi dari segi hati... Its suicide rasa nya.. Haha... Labih jua eh... :p ntah kadang2 soalan my parents atu macam membagi hint betanya aku ada 'kawan' or not... Or just aku yang terasa like dat p sebenarnya inda... Hahah... Cuba tah kamu if your mum mention about kawin2an d rumah... Apa ertinya?? Mesti jua pasal tani 2 kan sebagai anak... Yatah jawapan ku selalu... Sabar ma ah... Cari laki ku dulu... Hahah...

what ever you like
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Is it normal??

... Normal kah f you used to wear heels yg tinggi... Then when you use half of its height for xample if you slalu wear 3 n then you wear 1.5... Kaki sakit jadi nya... Thats what i encounter plng... Yatah... Normal kah 2?? Or its just me...

n krg patang sport... Kami main badminton... Well atu saja yang indoor kan... Hopefully banyak cigu turn up krg... Mun nda sunyi 2 eh... Kami buat2 rajin pasal it affect our grading... Kan? Kan ambil point lah kata kan...

n masa ni aku melepak pat my mum's office... Kan tiap ari dah ku kmari ani... Haha... Seronok bah... Sajuk... N pemandangan indah... Pemandangan d luar ah view dari atas... Lawa... Jangan salah paham... Hehe... Nada masa kan mengatal ni... Everybody's acting professional... Cceewwaah... Hahaha.... Dalam hati... Gila hensem jua!!... Hahaha...

kau d hati ku.. Haha...
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An A perhaps?

Hehe... My TP grade overall up to this date... Mostly 4 which is good... And a few 3 which is satisfactory... Next week i guess will be my final grading... So im aiming for a few 4 and more of 5 which is outstanding... I believe i can achieve it... My supervisor told me that i am still depending on rules in teaching maths... Which i have to change... Because maths is all about reasoning... Everything in maths has a reason behind it... So i have to emphasise more on that... I try... N he said i am more confident now in teaching maths... Yyeeaayy~ and my voice is alot better now... Its louder compared to his previous visit... I can manage the class well... Wweehhee... Haha... As long as i keep them busy tho... If not... They'll be wandering around the class...

during my teaching i ask the students to choose a day for their revision... Its an xtra class in the afternoon... I dont want saturday bcause in the morning i have 2 class to be taught... Because teaching 2 class is already tiring... But i told the student i dont want saturday pasal aku kan k mall... Aku atu kan becali... Sekali nda menjadi... Drg serious... Ada one student tanya... Teacher kmall setiap hari sabtu kah???... Haha... N aku gtau eh kamu ani teacher kan liat wayang bah... Supaya drg nda banyak tanya lah lagi 2 ah... Sekali apa nah... Teacher liat wayang sama siapa??? Sekali ada one student say... Eh kamu ani nda paham eh... Hahaha... Sebenarnya terasa hati ku tu... Buat2 senyum saja... Senyum nda ikhlas... I wish i could go out with someone to catch a movie on saturday nite... Hhmmm....

lonely heart
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Its getting freaky...

Remember i told you my tua say pasal antu ayam??? The nite before the ayam mati... My sis sebenarnya tdgr... Macam ada footstep d luar... Org pkai kasut tinggi... Dmalam baru ya becerita... Atu ku kambang bulu... Pasal masa ya becerita lurus kami d basement mall... Mana cali 2 mun tarus2 'ya' cakap... Membali bunga kita dang... Hahaha... And tadi... My mum panggil aku... Masa siuk2 ku bedangdutan... Pikir tah apa... Rupa nya tangan my sis c mimi... Kana garit.... Tapi nda tau d mana ya dapat.... Thats scary man... Banar.... Arah lengan sebalah kiri... Garit nya atu panjang... Straight and 3 buting... Macam.... Heheh... Takut alai eh...

Chill...

Masa ni saya melepak chill... Seronok juga ye... Relax bah sama jua esok ku nada class... Hehe... My sis blanja... Yes... Ngikis harta ku ni... Hahaha...

c maci slalu mention pasal shirley temple... Merasa tah ku ni... Nada pencuci mata sini ani... :p heheh... Plan mengajut kami kan menengok wayang.... Sekali aher karang balik... Kn merait buku student mesti siap by tonite... Hhehe... Nda tia jadi.... Next time saja...

maci... Nyaman plng... Tapi apa kan sebenarnya ingredient nya ani... Hahaha....

chilling out
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Frustrated!

My sci class really disappoint me tadi... I dont know what to say lagi... Now am having headache... Moody... The feeling of restless... Pasal what happen tadi... Banar... Kids nowadays i think just plain lazy... Spoil kids... Banar tah... Buat2 bodoh pasal malas actually pandai... Eh ntah la... I just dont get it... letih ku banar...

ok.. Ppl might say... Put yourself in your student shoe... Nda tau apa2 about the lesson... But my dear... As a student aku ani lakas menangkap what is being taught... Nda ku paham 2 org slow ah... Cana kan ah... I try to teach the student the right way but then again im afraid to confuse them with what they have learned already.... Paning jua 2...

oh btw... Masa ku lunch tadi... Makan ayam kan 2... Sekali masa ku siuk2 makan atu... My dad becerita... Ayam kami mati... Macam... Eh babah ani bisai2 wah org makan ayam jua ni... Teimagine jua ku 2 kan... Hahah... Ayam yg ku makan bukan plng yg mati atu... Yg mati atu ada masih dluar alum kana kubur... Ntah my tua say ya mati pasal antu ayam??? Apakan baru lagi 2... Malas tah ku betanya more further... Heheh....

oh tadi i met my former D student... I miss them.. Some of them... Drg tanya tadi knapa aku nda ajar drg... I said knapa?? You miss me kh?? Haha... Its pasal their teacher telampau strict... I know some of them willing to learn tapi cana jua... Masa my teaching i can see improvement mau belajar in them... I admit... Ani ntah... Vanish kali...

confused...
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Its raining~

Rain heavily... With thunderstorm everywhere... Hhmm... I just got back home... N tadi aku saw cigu mizah pnya keta dpn jolibee serusop... Lurus kah keta mu 2 dang... Hehe... I went to serusop to photocopy the students notes... Ytah masa kan park the car... I saw anak damit (anak ucing)... Aku mau!!... N my mum ckp jgn tah... Capi eh... Ada 2 ekor plus the mummy... Jadi 3... Eh... Ku mau banar2 mau... Sian jua 2 ya nada rumah... Kan... Ai g ujan... Sian jua 2... Kbasahan... Hhmm...

n esok my supervisor datang... Hhmmm... Not as nervous as his first visit... P nda tau ah esok... Hhehe... N aku takut f he ask pasal my ct... Pasal aku nda pernah kana observe time maths by my ct... N ct ku yg currently ani g suka pulang awal... Hope he's willing 2 stay tommorrow... N tadi my ct accounting ada tanya where i live and she said since aku dekat ada possibility kana ambil d smb... Something like that lah... Yatah make me think... Am i ready kah or am i willing to be a teacher after this??? Hhmmm... I heard ada tp teacher kana book udh ulih certain school... After tp tarus stay sana mengajar... Big decision ni... Decision that will change my future... Still thinking... Am praying... Hopefully ada sign... :)

'what are you searching for?? cant you find it in me???'

just wondering
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currently.....

... i'm listening to sheila on 7 song 'yang terlewatkan'... i try to find the playlist on imeem but unfortunately only the video available... so aku siuk sendiri lah dulu masa ani... p i have it on my hp tho' heheheh.... you can look at the lyric on my side bar... nice... hehe....

oh... it would be great kan if you got handphone as a birthday present... apa lagi if that handphone andang you idam2 kan... nice feeling tu... masa my twenty second birthday aku punya wish list either a new handphone or a digital camera.... i have it both but not during birthday... but it still a nice feeling but it'll be perfect kalau time birthday itself... apa kan... besyukur ku dih... im just saying if bah... :p but last year birthday nada wish list... but its perfect udah... walaupun celebration nya aher... tapi its still perfect... :) this year wish list??? apa bisai... haha... aku nda minta apa2 but if ada rezeki a new 'friend' would be nice... hehehe....

aku pernah mention pat my mum... 'ma udah ku graduate aku mau PSP as a present ah...' hahaha.... betul aku mau PSP... bising tia my siblings ani... eh dah ko kaja lah ko bali sendiri... apa plang minta balikan lagi... hahaha....
im the most spoilt kid dalam my family... ntah maybe aku yang the eldest atu kali ah... heheh... nda pemalu aku ani eh... hahaha... kalau aku nda dapat barang yang aku suka... i'll go crazy... teman2 rapat ku paham udah ni... kan... hheheh... i remember when i was a kid masa my dad kursus in singapore... asal menelepon 2 mesti cakap... 'bah balikan game..' udah my dad balik ada tia game..... yyeeaaaa~ hahah.... i'm a game freak actually but at this moment during cuti saja.... hari2 biasa have to ignore the desire kan main game.... tanggungjawab d dulu kan.... am i right??? and ada one time my dad balik dari sabah after mendaki gunung kinabalu... ada beg ani lawa... i said babah nda guna ni? aku mau... sekali nda kana bagi... kana bagi baju saja... apa nah.... menangis eh... hahahah... kana bagi tia beg ah... spoil eh aku ani... :p

but aku ada wishlist udah when i had a job.... apa nah... first.. to own VW toureg... second... to own iphone.... third... go to dubai for a holiday.... yeha~... hehehe... atu lah yang penting... kira my needs lah tu... hehe my wants banyak plng... tapi yang penting kata my mum... bila ada gaji nanti... orang tua jangan lupa... especially nini... awu... heheheh....

whatever it is.. its all up to the individual.. everybody ada their needs and wants... to get it we have to work hard to earn it.... as long as you believe and you have the will... why not... you treat it as your ganjaran that you deserve due to the hard work... the time that you spend... your rehat time... hehehe... tapi mesti you know either your effort atu sama level or not with your wants... if not... nda jua berbaloi tu... kan...

with all the love in the world
FIFI

My mind change~

Its not bad tho' the aerobic tadi... Plus yoga... Fun lah...udh atu... Hahaha... Bth udh ku nda work out... Nah tadi masa yoga kdapatan sbnrnya aku flexible pasal bukan jenis yg baru2 bexcrcise... Hahah... Bangga jua ku 2... :p kambang2... Wwuu... :p

lagu mas kaer ani menyentuh jiwa ku eh... Haha... Suara g mendayu2 menusuk kjiwa... Hahah... Masa ni i makan @ tinis... Kueh tiew goreng... Ntah current fav food ku... But i still like yg rbc punya....

after work out atu sangal2 badan... Urat2 tetarik... Hahah... Udah balik after mandi tarus tidur seronok ni... Dapat mimpi indah tarus... ;)

selalu d hati mu (hahahha)
FIFI

Saturday is sport day...!!

Mestikah saturday?? Weekend?? Kan ngedate pn ngak bisa ini... Hahaha... Mcm tah aku ada date... Haha... Aku malas... Sal ngantuk... Hhmm... Banar plng untuk kesihatan... But why saturday?? yoga g 2 eh karang ani... Tdur ni ulihnya... Haha... I think... :p from 2.30 till 4.30... Hopefully fun... Mun nda... Ntah...

owh ya... Aku got issue here... Macam the mid year for accounting nda temasuk topic yg ku ajar... Macam... Ai... Hhmm... Pasal ada class lain yang alum abis blajar that part... P kn personally aku pikir pasal aku kah sebenarnya?? Hahaha... Banar macam... Is it really pasal class lain alum abis or is it me??... Aku ani mudah terasa hati... Yatah selalu jua kjiwa... Mudah tah ku berkata2 d dalam hati...

and ya jua in maths aku nda suka time mengajar student nda paham pasal they have not mastered the basic... Payah jua ku 2... Melambatkan my teaching... I dont xpect them 2 ingat semua... But at least ada idea... Waduh... Gmana ni...

awu aku suka complaining... Pasal aku masa ani mengantuk.... Hahah... Its my nature i guess... My sis c dd... Ya slalu tagur 2 if im being impatient... Ntah mayb i have adhd kali... I dont know... Haha... Pasal one of the sympthom of adhd... They think everything moves slow... Padahal in reality phasing mcam biasa saja... Yatah since bagi drg smua slow atu yatah membuat frustration to them... I dont know... Aku pn like dat... I guess... Lambat sikit bah... Abis.... Macam dunia ani milik ku... Nda ku duli org... I cant control it my dear...

kementalan
FIFI

Almost...

Almost had a heart attack tadi!!... Really!!... I went to serusop tadi... To photocopy the students notes... I was still in the car... Then i turn my head to the right... Kira sibuk lah 2 meliat siapa parking sebalah ku kan... Sekali ku liat vios... N the guy look like him!! Tarus my heart beats faster... Then i looked at the lady next to him... Xcen ku sibuk2 kan diri biar drg jalan jauh dulu... Baru ku kuar keta... Then the vios is blue... Duh!! Vios nya itam kali aa... Hahah... Suspen aja... Tapi banar smpai balik rumah tadi still sakit dada ku... Haha...

start saturday patang... Ada sport for the teachers... I heard compulsary... Waduh mengapa harus saturday... Heheh... If ziemah mengaji esok then i wont have any partner... Hhmm... Malu bah... Heheh... Mesti tah bedangan...

aher kan ku tdur... Awu buat lesson plan... F just the students notes classwork n homework i wont bother alot pasal ari atu dah siap... P LP ani batah yo kan membuat... You have to think harder n deeper... We have an idea how to teach that lesson its just that to put into words and actually making a sense out of it yang susah... Ngerti??? Hehe...

sayang mu
FIFI

You drive me crazy~

'Why dont you go your way... And i'll go mine... Live your life and i'll live mine... i walked away so you dont have to see me cry...'

you were not on my mind anymore... But why are you re-appearing??? You ruin my day for today... Hhmm... If its true that you still think or even care about me... Why dont you just say it to my face... I dont like this kind of i so-called game.... Even its just a game... But it gives me a great impact... Know why??.. With you on my mind... Makes the feeling want to be in love again stronger... Tau???

crazy
FIFI

I like~

Suka ku ngajar sci class ah... Heheh... Mun cani keadaan nya... I'll stay d smb smpai bila2 pun bulih... N my CT tanya tadi how was it... I said its ok... Class ku b4 sama plng jua ok kalau ku bgi kaja... But yg dulu... Ada yang nda membuat... Ckp nda paham tapi personally pn nda btanya... Mcm sci class iya nda skulah d last lesson tadi btanya... Bagus kan... Yang previous becerita yatah lambat siap... Yg nw... Silent ada plng bising p discuss... Macam i do my best... Then the effort its all up to the student... Kan... With all the hope they @least get something from my teaching... :)

i dont know what's happening to me... Slalu aku tdur ptg supaya malam nda awal banar tidur... Ani nw... Mana mau tdur n malam aher tdur... Knapa 2 ya nah... Capi kan... Yes the feelings still ada jua... I could say mcm you're on your first date... Dari saat you wait for him to pick you up till you guys balik... Catu tah feeling nya.... Your date atu mesti tah orang yang you paling suka ah... Bukan some random guy... Heheh... It comes n go... But still...

'...i rather be...'

yours truly
FIFI

ku curi question c maci... :)

hahaha.... boring ku masa ani... kan merehatkan diri nda mau... here goes:

EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?
- nope.. not yet...

LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
-3 yrs n 9 mnths... *mengira kali ku dulu ah before jwb this question... i almost forget* hahaha....

LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
- paling special underwear ijau... dari bungsu ku.... hahah...

EVER DROPPED A CELLPHONE?
- yupz....

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
- last week??? :p

THING(s) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
- food.. bags... shoes... clothes n lingerie....

LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
- mee goreng d skulah...

FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
- hot body??? heheh... :p

ONE FAVOURITE SONG?
- currently... lewat semesta...

WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
- somewhere

HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED
- SMB & STPRI

A PROVIDER
- provide apa??? service telepon kah? data stream telecommunication...

FAVOURITE MALL STORE
- The Mall

LONGEST JOB YOU HAD?
- is TP considered as a job?? if so... teaching... :)

DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
- kan d apa??

DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?
- nope...

LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED
- last february?? haha...

FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU RECEIVED GOOD NEWS
- depend on which news.... personal or nda...

LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BESTFRIEND
- hhmm....

FAVOURITE FASTFOOD RESTAURANT
- none in particular....

BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD
- *you have a new gf ah thats why you left??.... mana ada.. who told you??*... penipu ko gila.... sama... *he told me he's single fews months back...* ku langgar ya pkai keta mun ku tjumpa...

WHERE'S YOUR FAV PLACE TO EAT WITH YOUR FRIENDS?
- somewhere comfortable...

CAN YOU COOK?
- sure...

WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
- hyundai accent...

BEST KISSER
- me?? can u keep a secret?? hahaha....

LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
- tadi.. almost... banar2... hhmm... cant recall...

MOST DISLIKED FOOD
- apa ah...

THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF
- being a maths major undergraduate student....

THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF
- short tempered.... n pendiam...

LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB
- from 7am till 2pm... hahah...

FAVOURITE MOVIE
- ps i love you...

CAN YOU SING?
- i can... but not that musically talented....

LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
- peter pan... is it in 2004???

LAST KISS?
- ...

LAST MOVIE RENTED
- none...

ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT
- e61i n wallet....

FAVOURITE VACATION SPOT
- dubai..

LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?
- laptop

FAVOURITE COMEDIAN
- jim carrey... adam sadler...

DO YOU SMOKE?
- never... but aku ada mimpi aku bsigup... apa ertinya 2??

SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
- with...

WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
- alone...

DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?
- for me? ngak bisa sih... if for short period bisa....

HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
- never....

PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
- pancakes ani kalau brunei kira tumpi kan... french toast atu ruti paun... i'll say both...

DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
- when i need that energy fix...

HOW DO YOU LIKE YOU EGGS?
- half boil or scramble please...

WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED?
- ari ani nada ngaji...

NUMBER OF PILLOWS?
- more than 5...?? i even bring my pillow k dapur... :)

WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
- teka le ;)

PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC
- 'i know it hurts so much but its best for us..' apa yang best nya...

CAN YOU PLAY POOL?
- computer game?? yes...

CAN YOU SWIM?
- yea..

FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
- none in particular

DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
- i know how to read them tho'...

TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABT YOURSELF
- i love driving... fast...

EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?
- nda i think...

WHAT IS YOUR FAV SEASON?
- in my world ada season of love sama season of loneliness... my fav season of love.... :p

LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?
- why should i laughed at something stupid... duh!... *start tah ku kementalan lagi* haha...

WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
- 5 something2 in the morning...

BEST THING ABT WINTER?
- white...

LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?
- tiket apa??? kes nda phm... haha... never yo...

NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET
- family pet... c manis...

DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?
- kalau c johnny depp cool... in reality... mihir!!!

WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?
- not sure... a date will be nice...

BIRTH DATE - 17th december 1985....

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE
- someone important in my future career... n someone important in somebody's heart...

ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?
- yea

ARE YOU SMILING?
- now?? im trying... to impress people.. yea... :)

DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
- none in particular... but im thinking of someone...

ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?
- teaching?? ya...

DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
- nada kali...

WHAT IS YOUR FAV NAME?
- fifi... awu aku suka nama ku... haha

DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?
- the semester start in august tho'...

DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?
- nope...

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?
- by ship??? pernah...

DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
- iya iya lah...

ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?
- rumah ku bungalow... nada upstairs...

ARE YOU IN LOVE?
- next question please... haha...

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
- for a surgery?? yea...

DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
- see as in dating??awu... i could only wish... wish it come true... mudahan jua... :)

WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
- rimas ku...