Tuesday, March 31, 2009

...

...im sleepy!!

...this weird feelings getting on my nerves... Why??... It affects my mood...

...i feel blue right now...

...thanks dear friends for the sharing session... Looking forward for the next one... Bila?? :p

...my e61i still memikat hati ku when compared with e63...

...side effect of wearing high heels... Back pain...

...i read somewhere... Coconut can make kutu disappear... My sis say... Antuk kan kkepala piasau ah takut kutu kan kuar... Hahah...

...i love to look at the make up being displayed... But i dont know how to apply them... N im allergic to some ingredient of it...

...im not afraid to cicak... Frogs... Awu ada malam2 katak kluar melepak dpn rumah ah... Lipas... Pigang saja antenna nya bis 2 flush d jamban... Spider... Suka melepak d jamban kami... Haha... Yatah ada yg batah kn k jmban 2... Haha... You name it... Nda ku gali... :)

...i dun like to see dead animal... Sian... Anak ayam yang nda survive sian usulnya... N aku gali 2... Hhmm... Heheeh...

...i miss c mami kiut... :(

...i mau baby meow... Now aku just can liat arah jendela bilik n liat my aunty pnya baby meow main2... Btw aku call anak ucing as anak damit... So jgn heran if i say anak damit when refering to kittens...

...nite2 ppl... Mimpi yang indah...

yours truly
FIFI

My confession~

Everytime i talked about some random guy to my close friends... Its either i adore their good looking face or i like their character... And usually before spilling out the feelings of adoring the opposite sex atu... I tend to see if they are married or not... Kan... Yatah... Pasal... When it comes to knowing that person kawin udah... The wall is built there... The limit smpai sana saja... Kalau bujang... Baru tah ku share with my dearest friends... Atu pun macam... Sure ko iya bujang...?? Ko ah mana tau ya btunang??... So?? Salah kah aku adore him... Aku adore him saja bah bukan khati ku... Soal hati alum lagi ada buat masa ani... Alum ada signal2 nya... Hahaha... Aku share with you my dear friend pasal nda building up dalam jiwa ku... Walaupun that feelings sekajap saja p never mind at least lakas ilang jua... Dripada d jiwa ku btaruh bis 2 nda menjadi d mana ku luahkan??

aku kmentalan pasal masa kan balik dri lunch out aku bdiscuss sama cigu nisa pasal jodoh thingy... n pasal the magazine that i read... It mention pasal the guy reject you because you are not his dream lady... Yg ayu2.. Ktawa pun nda tdangar... Ntah eh... Mcm banar plng 2... Its the nature of bini2 ayu... Tapi yang kurang ayu cana... Susah bah sayang kan fake ayu ani... Tau... Mau you kan your partner atu faking herself because kan menyaman kan hati mu??? Ntah lh...

and the magazine jua gtau your being rejected pasal you are highly paid then that other half... Macam... How many guys yang a degree holder like me??? Not so many kali aa... Yang pernah belajar ugama... Know sekufu kn?? Yatah i prefer yg sekufu wif me... In terms of jobs la... Supaya f there is something yang arise... Atleast setaraf... Kan...

ok i better stop right now... Karang tercakap ku something that im not suppose to say... Teoffended ku hati orang... Sian...

hopefully this post is an eye opener buat orang yang alum sadar...

p/s... Buat teman2 ku yg paham f kan comment plz dun mention 'who' ah... DANGER ALERT!!!

yours truly
FIFI

Monday, March 30, 2009

This feelings~

The weird feelings that i mention... Still haunts me... Mcm apa kan... Rasa nervous apa jua kan ku nervous kan... Rasa takut apa jua kan ku takut kan... Ntah eh...

today... I went to UBD to see my supervisor regarding my new timetable... He'll be observing me nxt week... After ku minta discount tu if not thursday ani ya dtg... Nda jua ku ready tu... Heheh... N apa nah iya pikir masa ani masih school holiday... Haha... Baik plng ku ckp awu ah... Haha... Macam awal2 heran ku ya ckp... Are you on break?? Mcm apa kan maksud nya 2?? Nda ku paham... Skali rupanya psal holiday... Hehehe...

tomorrow i'll be meeting the girls over the lunch hour... Kan gossip2 cikit... Hahaha... No lah... Its sharing session... Talk about this TP thingy n update pasal hal sorang2... I guess... Hehe...

i just bought my fave magazine... Ada cerita hot... Dapat ku blog pasal hal atu... But alum ku start membaca... I'll blog about it once i've finish reading.... Cant wait...

bah ppl... Saya mau.... Apa nah... Hahaha... :p

owh... Btw... Ada my fren comment yang aku ani funny... Am i?? Haha... I dont feel im funny... As in my character bah... Hhmm... Is it??

yours truly
FIFI

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Its the end...

End of the school holiday... Hm~ banyak tah kaja ni lagi... But no worries... Coz my aim for this new term is to do better... Hehe... Im nervous for tomorrow... N the not so cool part... I dont know where i sit... Ntah d mana kh kami kana taruh... Hopefully nda panas n jauh bnr dri class... N.. N... Im looking forward kan pakai kasut baru... Wweehheee~ baru confident nah mengajar... Haha...

btw... If i happen to not updating this blog its due to im pretty much busy with the school work... I hope not... i try my best tho...

to the teacher's bah semangat2 tah... Its your last chance ni kan prove that you can be a better teacher... Puas udah cuti... *puas th karang*.... Hahaha.... All the best TP teacher...

Saturday, March 28, 2009

sight set on you~

what's up?? today... just got my teaching timetable... its a relieve tho' at least for me... i did not teach my D n F class this time around... i got to teach the sci 2 n A class starting monday... its a nice feeling but i kind of starting to like my D class... its ok lah... let it be... btw.. im a sci 2 student back in my school years in smb... hehe... what can i recall from the sci 2 back then... yea noisy class.. hahaha... now.. what i heard also noisy... hehehe... inherited kali ah... noisy but got brain what... c maci agree tu.. hehehe....

tomorrow's agenda... going to the beach... dont know which but definitely we'll be having a small picnic session... hehe.. looking forward... but as for tonight... i might not be able to sleep early... got to start on doing my lesson plan for accounting... final accounts yo harus ku ajar this new term... im praying that this new term i'll do better... as for maths.. have to wait till monday... i have new CT... cgu nisa... :p

speaking of love life... nothing major... like what maci says after one year baru tah hunting for kumbang... heheh... really i agree jua with what she said atu... for me after a year... the cut is heal but of course the scar will remain forever... but its the matter of am i ready to be in love again??? hhhmmm.... i shall try... i know i have to start somewhere... i have to admit now im starting to hear romantic love song... hehehe... before? broken hearted song... selingkuh song... haha... back on the right track udah hati ku....

yours truly
FIFI

Last nite....

I going out with the sisters... @ 1st we dont know where to go... We went out just for the sake of buang boring... Hehe... But then dd had an idea to go to this ice cream shop that owned by her former bos cousin... So yea why not... So we're heading to gadong... As usual... Ramai~... While looking for where to park the car... Then ada tah ni teenagers sok kuat usulnya... Ramai lagi tu... Heading out from mall to arah car park dapan ah... Mcm... Eh tampat lalu kerita kali ni aa.. Aku dengan make dunno... Ku hon tah ni... N the teenagers ani sok gengster teliat2 keta ku... Tampar krg eh... Badan kurus jgn tah perasaan... Mun ku melanggar mana lagi kamu besuara 2...

charmy snow ice is the place i will definitely going to again... Nice la the place... Cozy... Kalau dating siuk tu... Haha... N the song they were playing... I like... My kind jua... Macam kan berdansa ku... Hahaha... Sayang nya ku btudung... Next time tah... :p hehehe....

speaking of going out ani... We miss the two final episode of EU... But no worries... Since ada rerun... Balik saja k rumah tarus meliat... Sedih wwoo... Hehehe... Rindu tah ku ni kan c ah man ku... Hm~ the girl let go of their relationship pasal many things happen... Tapi the guy nda sanggup... He is willing to wait for the girl... N
sedih ku liat the guy nangis... Hehe...

my weird feelings kembali tiba~
yours truly
FIFI

Friday, March 27, 2009

sexy....~

just bought it today.... heheh..

nice kan??? sexy??? the price reasonable and... aku dengan nda sabar nya tarus pakai... haha... i cant make decision tadi... so many choices... tapi banyak nya last pair... even this one pun last pair... ada lagi satu tadi nice jua but abit pricy cikit... nanti tah... one pun enough for the time being... hehe...

yours truly
FIFI

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Out of nothing~

Whats happening over the holiday ani... Well... Nothing major... Just enjoying it to myself saja... Heheh... Just want to share something la... For us to think together... Ok~

have you ever terfikir that you have a doubt arah your loved one... Every single thing that they do or say you dont blindly swallow but you pikirkan over n over again... Pasal you ragu2... Are they lying or its a pure thing that come out of their heart???.... But the reality is that... They never betray you never do what you ever thinking of... Ikhlas la sejujur2 nya.... When you find out sebenarnya they ikhlas n jujur atu... What you do?? What words will be coming out from your mouth???...

as for me... I actually dont know what to do... Say sorry of course... Tapi cukup kan tu sekadar saying im sorry...???

i brought up these thing pasal i watched my EU drama tadi... Yatah... This guy tembak the lady that he love pasal iya pikir the lady betrayed him by telling the police his secret... Tapi sebenarnya nda... Udah nya tembak atu then he cek the lady's hp... She didnt tell pun... The lady nda plng marah2 instead she said she's happy n stuff... N the guy say sorry... Tapi cana nda jua dapat balikkan semula nyawa the lady atu... Yatah... Aku kan nangis tadi liat that part... But in the family nda dpt liat org nangis pasal meliat drama... Heboh 2... Malu jua alai 2... Hahah...

its safe to say i've got my mimpi2 indah back... Yyeeaayy~ walaupun hari2 ku nda indah but @ least ada mimpi2 indah ku... :p

yours truly
FIFI

yesterday~

'HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY' to c didi aka fifi suhaila...

didi n yours truly~

nyaman tu kek nya ah... aku yang pilih... hahaha... italian tiramisu... sedap!!~ my wishes for you sista... semoga panjang umur... sihat selalu... many2 happiness comes into your life... lakas2 tah ko kaya... :p hehehe

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

searching~


that part of me left yesterday....
no regrets...

just an ordinary day~

i've been listening to this song for the past two days...

lewat semesta
by randy pangalila

Satu kata bertulis cinta
Telah merasuki ku
Tak berwujud tak tersentuh hanya ku rasa

*Dan jika wujud nya menjelma
Pada sebentuk hati
Bukankah itu amanah dari yang kuasa

Menjaganya.. menjaganya..

Wahai insan yang di sana
Mungkin saja ini kau dengar
Melewati semesta ini
Aku sampaikan
Begitu ingin berbagi batin
Mendengarkan hasrat di jiwa
Oh Tuhan pertemukan aku
Sebelum hatinya beku

Back to *


yours truly
FIFI

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Its sunday...

So?.. Hahaha... Mental... Finally.... For those who know where i live... Ada the 1st house arah bukit d sana... Ytah kali ani sampai ku menghon keta yg park d jalan aa... Puas hati ku... Tau udh space rumah nya atu damit... Sekali bbusiness lagi ya d sana... N then tmpat atu nda strategic... Jalan g smpit... Bukit lagi... Nh merasa tah ya ku menghon.... Bnyak kali dang... Siuk eh... Hahaha... Ytah masalah nya ni org bbusiness... Cubatah ah cari tampat strategic... Bnr plng minat n stuff tapi... Cana kan maju 2... Ntah eh... You people can see banyak business kana set up mcm cendawan tapi how many yang tutup within a year operating??

aku kangen deh ama teman2 ku... Nada bcredit ku kan memsg... :p hahaha... Ntah knapa tiba2 aku rindu life @ ubd... I dont like it kalau ada org compared my course sama course org lain... Aku tau ni ada 2 nanti org ckp2 dbelakang knapa aku..... *fill in the blank sendiri* hello... Maths ani complicated sikit as u all know... Cuba tah pikir 8 maths course you have to take in the final semester.... I'm just an ordinary.. Normal person...

biarin deh... Aku cuma rugi setangah taun... @least aku ada aim sudah kn apply d mana... Sama jua pengambilan nya awal taun kana offer... Duh!!... Npa kan ku mental2 ani... Haha...

tadi aku macam org nada kaja lah... Try to do some push up... Skali dang barat badan ku nda ku push... Hahaha... Awu aku mesti lose some weight kali dulu baru mau... Hehe... N aku buat sit up... 1st 10 ok ni masih mana sakit muscle parut... Kira macam pro lah 2... Udh kan 20... Pisan... Hahaha... Kta org f you tglkan batah the exercise you used to do... Your body grow twice as big kan??? Thats what happen to me... Ytah im really concern ni... Mau jua ku my sexy body back kan... :p hahaha....

For now, i am...

-home alone... The family going to KB... Lazy to join.. Still have unfinish business here...

-having headache...

-trying to ignore things that linger on my mind but seems i cant...

-reflecting on what is happening one year back from today... Hhmm... Its a one miserable year indeed... Made a promise after today.. No looking back... Move forward...

-wishing for the last time... To see him just once... Sekali ini saja...

-crying now for the last time because of him... Eventho he dont deserve my tears but i just have to...

yours truly
FIFI

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Sunny day~

I like it when its sunny outside... Time cuti ani tah lagi... Sanang ku do the laundry...

'he' came in my dream last nite... Ntah i hate it.. Pasal whenever i had a dream of him... Bepikir ku kenapa?? Whats the reason behind it... Bnr plng mimpi is just mainan tidur... Tapi mun kn always atu nda jua siuk 2... Wondering jua you 2 kan??

life hasnt been good to me this lately... Hopefully it'll change soon... :) owh yea.. Musim ani musim org ngantar cv applying for jobs... Yatah macam.. Seronok ee.. If i didnt screw up in the first place i'll be sending up my cv too... Hhmmm.... Things happen for a reason... I believe...

my grandma staying over for the weekend @ our place... Yatah she's telling a secret pasal y the actress dulu2 ramping2 pinggang drg... Pasal drg pkai kain panjang then drg lilit2 around that area ketat2... Hhmm... Mau jua ku mencuba 2... Heheh...

i ask u people aaa.. Have you ever encounter masa begambar nda kirala pkai hp kah pkai digital cam kh apa kh... Yatah awal2 after bgmbar atu you liat nothing is wrong... Then the next time or the next day you liat lagi the gambar... Mcm ada something saja behind you... Pernah??? Well... I pernah... Tapi i never release that gmbar lh... Only to my close family... Atas sebab2 tertentu... Yatah... Am i scared?? Nope... Only kalau aku went to the place dmana i took that picture... Baru tah... Hehe...

Thursday, March 19, 2009

@ last...

...the moment that i've been waiting for arrive... Hahah.... Seronok jua ku ni... C-U-T-I~~ since cuti ani aku malas kan ceta2 pasal my job... Im not keen to share... Keep it to myself saja....

i've got big plans for the holiday ani... Rearranging the position of the furniture in my room... Yehaa~ xcited ku ni.... Pasal?? The position nw i've had it since aku muda dulu... Hahaha.... Mcm th tua aku ani aa... Starting esok... Hopefully by sunday siap... I hope sunday ani bth dtg tapi... I cannot prevent it from coming... So terima dengan hati terbuka...

hey... I chat with indo guy tadi... Baru ni ku melayan biasa aku malas melayan... His age 20 coming 21... N biasa nya kalau muda dri aku malas tah ku kn melayan... Pasal kebiasaan drg ni alum mature so far yg ku tjmpa... Apa th lagi yg sama umur... Yg tua dri aku pn alum tantu mature jua utaknya... Dui bilakh kan berakalnya nda th ku tau 2.... Nice tho to chat wif him... Not mcm laki2 brunei soalan pertama... Single?? Duh! Membari malas... Bh malas ku cakap any further... Kana blacklist ku krg ulih laki2 brunei... Hahah... Its the reality tho... Hhmmm...

owh speaking of relationship... Aku ani suka silently reading ppls blog... Fb status org... Yatah... Mcm rasa kan ku tagur cara drg cakap pasal drg pnya other half... Macam... Bulihkh jangan th labih2 atu bah... Bukan ku jeles... I've been thru that phase dulu... N i always believe that it'll last forever... Yatah aku takut drg go thru the same thing pasal mun kelaie tarus tah 2 btukar status... Jadi complicated... Apa kan??? Bnr plng lain org lain cara.... But just word of advice saja... Bnr plng your other half atu baik... Tapi sorg2 ada limitnya... So... Pikir2 lah....

ah man will u be mine~ haha...
yours truly
FIFI

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Just a thought...

I'm sleepy at this very moment... But yup as usual i'm waiting for my EU... 9.30... Lama lagi... Tetunggu kah nda jua ni.... Bah to kill the time i'll write pasal something la ye...

i've been reading people's blog silently... N i got envy with those people who join a group.. Join an organisation... Join this n that... Get to mingle with people that they dont meet on a daily basis... You get what i mean??? Yatah... I wonder how they did that i mean... Sometimes these things you didnt hear it on the radio.. Or tv or even not on the newspaper... N im guessing they get the news from their family.. Friends and yes... If you are in contact with many people... You'll get the news fast kan... Orang yang macam myself ani... Nda ramai dgn bcontact... Yatah lambat tau...

i dont have alot of frens yg i am constantly in contact with... Pasal their reality is different from mine... You can figure out kan what am i saying... So... Yea... My question is cana kan add a collection of your contact people??? Im wondering now... Ok im the type of person yang hhmm.. My fren say im a shy person... Pendiam... N ladies sikit... But actually... Im not that shy... I can be pendiam if i dont get along with a person... And im not that ladies if compared to whoever you want to compare me with... Hahahha.... Dear reader... I dressed up just to impress people around me... To look pretty... :D hahaha....

yatah bah... Gmana??? I jarang kan make the first move to tagur org unless org atu menagur aku dulu baru tah ada communication... F nt... Complete silent... People cana kan mengubah 2??? If you ask me to talk infront of many people... I'll stay away.... But if you ask me to talk one on one with people.. Yea sure why not... But then again people would say... Its all depends on yourself.... Your inner drive... What is your aim in doing these things?? If only one reason... Might not be enough...

so many questions on my mind yet so little choices of answers available

yours truly
FIFI

Counting days~

Yehhhaaa!! Two days left then 1st term school holiday... Hahah... Nda sabar ni udah... I bet semua cigu2 menanti cuti sekulah ani... N yang paling iski sekali cigu2 TP... Hehehe...

esok SMB ada rentas desa... Aku incharge d check point 11... Teka lah d mana 2... Mudahan tah cuaca mengizinkan esok n nda panas banar.... Mana lawa 2 mun sun burn...

n today is the last day for cigu2 yang kana transfer k sekolah menengah lambak kiri... Cigu2 d SMB happy lah 2 kan pindah... Ada yang semangat udah dari kemarin memanyap brg drg yang kan d bawa k sana... N student n the parents barat hati... Yes... Ada student menangis... Even ada yang kan beranti mun banar kana pindah... Nda bulih merayu... Segala rayuan akan d tolak... Thats what i heard... Ada plng tadi parents merayu jangan d pindah anak drg... Cana tah jua... Mun namanya tinggal d lambak pindah lah k sana... Mun aku the current student yang kana pindah i will be sedih plng jua... Sayang kali aa ku kan berakas atu... Hhmm... :)

n i heard my CT pindah bah... Tapi aku nda sure... Pasal iya nda gtau aku... Maklum lah nada communication ni aku sama CT ku... Even aku salah ajar one of the topic... Yg ku ajar PMB version not o level version... Hhmmm.... Ada ku no nya... Tapi dang aku ada another subject to teach bz jua 2... At least if his around sekali sekala ok jua... Ani baru tadi ku nampak then disappear.... I dont know eh...

yours truly
FIFI

Monday, March 16, 2009

Sponge Bob Square Pants *tagged by dee*

Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the end and look for your results.

Do not cheat by looking at the end of the bottom part of this post before you are done. Then forward this to whoever you want to send it to and change the subject of this message to what character is you.

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)
b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)
c) Painting in the park (5 pts)
d) Rock concert (1 pt.)
e) Going to the movies (3 pts.)

2. What is your favorite type of music?
a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)
b) Alternative (1 pt.)
c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)
d) Country (5 pts.)
e) Pop (3 pts.)

3 What type of movies do you prefer?
a) Comedy (2 pts.)
b) Horror (1 pt.)
c) Musical (3 pts.)
d) Romance (4 pts.)
e) Documentary (5 pts.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?
a) Waiter (4 pts.)
b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)
c) Teacher (3 pts.)
d) Police (2 pts.)
e) Cashier (1 pt)

5 What do you do with your spare time
a) Exercise (5 pts.)
b) Read (4 pts.)
c) Watch television (2 pts.)
d) Listen to music (1 pt.)
e) Sleep (3 pts.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?
a) Yellow (1 pt.)
b) White (5 pts.)
c) Sky Blue (3 pt s.)
d) Dark Blue (2 pts.)
e) Red (4 pts.)

7. What do you prefer to eat?
a) Snow (3 pts.)
b) Pizza (2 pts.)
c) Sushi (1 pt.)
d) Pasta (4 pts.)
e) Salad (5 pts.)

8 What is your favorite holiday?
a) Halloween (1 pt.)
b) Christmas (3 pts.)
c) New Year (2 pts.)
d) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)
e) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)

9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
a) Paris (4 pts)
b) Spain (5 pts)
c) Las Vegas (1 pt)
d) Hawaii (4 pts)
e) Hollywood (3 pts)

10 With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
a) Someone Smart (5 pts.)
b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)
c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)
d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)
e) Someone very sentimental (4 pts..)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for! Put your character in the subject line and forward to your friends. Very interesting to see 'who' you are!

(10-16 points) You are Garfield :You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how tohave fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know whatyou are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others maynot see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy:You are fun, you are very cool and popular. You always know what's in and you are never are out of style You are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times

(24-28 points) You are Elmo:You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing togive advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic andyou always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not tobe too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in your life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people, and you will be stress free.

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points) You are Dexter:You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once in awhile to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!

p/s: aku tag the 1st 10 reader... :) hehehe

tagged by hanna~

WHOEVER WHO GETS TAGGED HAS TO WRITE 10 THINGS ABOUT THE PERSON WHO TAGGED HIM/HER:

aku try my best to answer aa... maci mun salah mohon maaf... :p

* she's my x-mate back in STPRI
* she's the opposite of me... meaning... iya suka pkai accessories.. n im not... true!
* orang paling kuat makan yang close to me... i dont know how she can do that..
* she likes to read english novel... judith mcnaught *lurus kh ejaan nya* awu.. tabal2 atu tbaca iya 2...
* gossip girl!! ooppss :p
* pengusut!!... hahahaha... ssshhh :p
* she's single at the mo'...
* iya nda ramai kawan perempuan... pasal nda berapa serasi... standard lain2.. hahah... *apakan???*
* tinggal somewhere in tutong....
* iya pandai main piano... kan maci :D

THE PERSON WHO GOT TAGGED HAS TO WRITE 10 THINGS ABOUT HIMSELF/HERSELF:

letih ku kan gtau pasal diri ku ani eh... try my best aa...

1- the eldest among the four sisters...

2- nda memilih kalau makan... apa aja dang... despite aku ani ada food allergy.. so what bukan membari mati... kan...

3- loves heels... makes me confident and sexy... hehe :p

4- i find that maths is fun tapi.... sakit kepala yo..

5- my dream car VW toureg... heheheh....

6- suka drive laju tapi not proud of it.... hhmm.... tapi aku suka.. *apakan* :p

7- would love to try out xtreme sport someday

8- would love to join the army... wearing uniform makes u proud...

9- eventho' im a minor in accounting but still jua ku boros... :)

10- aku pentingkan my sleep over anything else... hehehe....

YOU NEED TO CHOOSE 10 PEOPLE TO BE TAGGED AND LIST THEIR NAME:

aku tag siapa saja.. but only to the 1st 10 reader aaa... hehehe....

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Tom yam....

Ssllluuurrrppp.... Hhhmmm~ sedap!!.... Hahah... Aku makan maggi tom yam masa ni... Yatah... Sedap!!.. My current fave... My sis pn cakap... Nda ko boring kah makan ani saja... Haha... Nda dang... :p

apa agenda ku today aah... Owh... F ku bagi homework pat student... Subject maths... Soalan nya 32 tapi ada anak2 lagi... Banyak kah 2?? Kejam kah 2?? Hahaha... Duli ku eh... Nama nya maths mesti bnyk practice... :D aku suka bgi bnyk kaja pat student.... Pasal aku malas ngajar... Hahah... Tapi aku yang suffer aher nya merait... :p

cuti~ lakas2 tah ko tiba... Nda ku sabar menanti kehadiran mu... Hhmm... Owh btw... Should aku apply for ngajar tuition kh?? Mengajar is not my thing tapi i would like to help our students bah to excel in their study... But im not keen to teach large number of student limit ku i think 10 saja... Kalau ngajar d rumah mau ku... Hehehe... I said to my sis... Kalau ko mau aku ajar bayar $20 sehari... Hahah...

aku kan liat ceta EU... Tapi... Esok baru tah ada... N not fair on friday ari atu nda main ah... Capi... Ilang semangat ku wah 2 menempuh hari2 yang seterus nya... Hahah... :p

n owh... Sekarang ani trend birthday cake kana replace with cup cakes kan... Yatah bah... D mana sih bisa ku dapat cup cake atu... Kadai mana specifically... Siapa yang tau ringan2 kan hati menshare2.... Jangan siuk sendiri...

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Membual...

Its raining outside and im here sitting alone in my room... Thinking... How long would it take me to stay like the way i do now... I mean in alot of different ways... Hhmmm... Time will tell... I know... But... im not that patience... At times... Of course :)

it will be a complete lie if i say i rather be alone now and be ok with it... Im not... Im human being who have needs and wants just like everyone else... I dont know... I get that envy feelings if i know.. Or heard or just found out my friends whom im not expecting they will be in a relationship soon enough would get into it... Like... Ai?? Where is that coming from... How come i didnt see it coming... How come they are the one yang dulu involve in a relationship and i didnt... Ah?? Wats wrong with me??... Yes people... I do think like that... Hhmmm....

its saturday and im feeling blue right now... Actually every saturday nite is my blues day... People would say monday blues but me its different... Saturday nite blues...

nite2 everyone... Have a great weekend... :)
someone whom need a love therapy
FIFI

Friday, March 13, 2009

Its friday...

Jadinya napakn mun friday?? Hehehe... Nada... :p in my recent post i did mention kan minta bawa bejalan kn... And tadi family day shopping... P malas jua ku ikut... Home alone tah saja ku tadi... Kan rehat bah... Apa kan ni... Heheh.... In fact im looking forward for sunday... Yes this sunday... Family day out... Liat wayang... Yeay~ batah udah ku nda liat wayang.... Last movie apa ah... Nah kan i dont even remember when was the last time i watched a movie... Seriously even this year sekalipun aku nada k cinema...

tadi i watched persuit to happiness... Starring will and jaden smith... Aku nda liat awal nya lah... Aku start liat middle nya saja... Ada this one scene yang part bos c will smith pinjam usin $5 pat nya sedang kan masa atu ia just ada few dollars saja left... Even dalam bank pun nda g ada pasal kana putung ulih org cukai.... Bos nya pinjam usin atu pasal kan bayar taxi wallet nya ttinggal.... Masa that moment... Mcm... Sian jua... Udah tah usin sikit kana minta lagi 2... I bet some of us kalau kana pinjam usin time karing gerenti nda mau minjami 2 kan??... Including myself... :) at least tani ada family tampat tani bergantung... Mcm c will atu... *btw ceta ani based on true story ah* ya ada anak n dorng g homeless... Cubatah... Sian lah... Everyday is a struggle lah for them...

for some of you yang alum pernah liat ceta atu... C will ani kaja nya jual barang apa kah 2... Since iya on trial masih for 6 months... Iya pnya salary is based on barang yang ya jual... Bukan kira salary lah kira commission... For one brg ya kana byr 2++ lh... N in one scene atu ada ya ckp duit 2++ atu cukup for 4 weeks... N even ya bemalam d hotel semalam as a reward... Macam... Mun tani survive kan 2??? For me... I dont think i could survive... Makan udah berapa kan membali atu ani lagi... I dont know... Hhmm~

owh tadi i chatting2 with the new guy i met in the cyber world... Iya tanya aku pasal apa yang aku cari in a guy... Awu dang bru pernah chatting sama2 udah tia betanya soalan2 personal... Aku nda heran with guys nowadays... So layan aja lh... N my answer... Janji kaja nya atu secure n iya ada bright future... And mature in a sense of the way iya bpikir... Its simple as that... N ya ckp... Atu simple u said... I said nda jua ku minta bnyk2... Hhmm... I dont know people... Criteria ku ani brubah2 but still the job is my 1st priority... Even most of the parents pun meliat arah apa bakal menantu drg punya kaja jua 2 kan... Bah kalau arah panggilan bah btanya jua org 2... Apa kaja bakal laki nya ani??... Nah kan kaja atu tah yang penting dulu kana tanya...

till next time people...
Yours truly
FIFI

Especially for you~

Maci... Cheer up... Jangan tah d kenang kisah lama... Buka tah chapter baru in your life... You have many good or great people standing side by side with you.... Im sure with their help you will achieve something that you might not expect it to happen in your life either.... So be happy girl... Because you really deserve it... No one can stop you from being happy.... Being sad is just another way of saying you are the loser in this crazy thing call love... Prove to him that you are worth it... That leaving you is a great big loss for him... Dont give up berdoa minta petunjuk and supaya d kurniakan kebahagian yang you deserve.... Walaupun sakit but life must go on... He dont deserve you so walk away from his life as far as you could...

im always here if you need me
yours truly
FIFI

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Salah siapa???

Geram hati ku ni... Aku kana hon masa mereverse keta d skulah... Nda ku tau cigu mana 2 tadi... Aste... Banar... Kalau keta ku cikit saja tadi reverse kan brgkali salah ku... Ani 1 over 3 of bdn keta ku udh kuar... N keta nya msh dpn nya atu tlimpas... Macam salah ku kan 2??? Salah nya jua 2 pasal nda meliat... I think ya laju pasal masa aku cek ada kh nda keta b4 aku reverse mana ada bh... N aku ingau jua pasal keta sblah blakang atu dkt pat bukan parking d ntam nya parking saja udah tah keta atu basar... Ntah... Cigu saja tapi... ...... Aku pantang ah kana hon masa driving f bukan salah ku... Mun salah ku banar aku terima dgn hati trbuka walaupun kabak2 2.... Dont play2 with me when on the road... Haha... At this point aku rasa macam lambat bh f speed 120 atu... Really!! Kana tagur ku udah ni ulih grandma ku jangan laju2 driving... Even masuk arah halaman rumah atu my dad tagur 2 pasal laju... Hahaha.... Lalallala~

i've to blog this out pasal aku masih mikirkan pasal aku kana hon tadi.... Hhhmmm~

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Sandiwara kah selama ini???

This week my halaqah nada ngaji lagi... Sal evryone is having their period... Bah ok... Relax ku jua nda payah k UBD... Jauh dang UBD atu... Dkt plng gadong 2... Hahah.... N supervisor ku nada ari ani... Syukur... Heheh... Tadi nervous ku brabis... I thought ia datang mengajut k class... Pisan jua 2...

i dont have anything 2 share pasal my mind busy memikirkan cuti yang nda g batah menjelang tiba.... Evrything you do everyday constantly memikirkan pasal school... Everything yang nama nya involve school atu tah yang d pikirkan... Apakan... Hehehe....

siapa yang wallet nya berisi usin atu sila jangan pura2 bawa tah aku bjalan2... Hahaha... Malas bah ku k ATM atu... Yatah masa ani kurang isi wallet ku kan which makes me malas kan singgah2 k kadai... Drg my sis meliat wayang today... Aku mau ikut... Tapi siapa partner ku?? Dmalam my sis minta permission tampat my mum pasal drg kan bjalan today... Skali my mum cakap iya kan ikut... N my sis ckp 'eh'... My mum ckp 'apa eh'... Hahah... Aku jadi batu api... 'dulu masa aku sama **** ****** kamu ikut jua... Semua lagi 2' hahahha.... Really masa ku nda single... Yatah pengikis harta 2 drg my sis ah... Kesana kemari ikut... Well kana paksa membawa drg plng 2.... Tapi now tebuat drg... Dui bulih pun drg2 saja.... Ngak adil sih....

owh ya aku read my own personal favourite blog... She blog about men nowadays... Ada yang kawin but still chasing single ladies... Ada yang single tapi jual mahal and ada yang telampau murah... Sorry for the words being used... :) ntah ah... Im praying supaya mendapat jodoh yang soleh yang dapat membimbing aku dunia akhirat... :)

wearing ballerina flats ani membagi blister d kaki ku... Pkai heels nda plng... Cana 2 nah... Minta balikan heels ku eh pat mama... Krg ku ngampu... Hahahha.... N actually i lost track on what am i blogging about... Aku rasa macam menceritakan my life which i suppose to keep it lying low... I should be blogging about my other side kan... Ntah... Should i go on hiatus for a certain period so that i could get back on track... I dont know... Time will tell....

to that someone out there if you are the one i am looking for please jangan tunggu lama2.... Hahahah... :p

yours truly
FIFI

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Guess??

Tadi had a conversation with cigu ziemah... Well one of it pasal age... Her student pikir she's 20... Hahah... Awet muda jua 2 kan... N she even say i did not look like my age now... Abit younger...Waduh... Terbangga ku eh... Hahaha.... And we admit we dont act like 23 years old do... Hehehe.... Aku nda tau bh cana kan a 23 years old suppose to look like n act??.... Membual jua aku ani eh... :p

supervisor ku ckp iya kan datang again this week... But im not sure when... Hm... Hopefully bukan esok... I dont mind iya datang plng its just that when he's around i tend to get nervous... N my student buat hal kalau iya ada.... Hhmm... I dont know...

time fly so fast yet im still here.... Alone~

yours truly
FIFI

Hari-hari ku

Morning everyone.... Morning sunshine~ hahahah.... Malas ku mengupdate kemarin... I was really tired... I didnt do my work either... M.A.L.A.S. :p partly plng 2... :) i did mention kan masa malam hari minggu atu ada bbq n karaoke session... Yatah smpai kul berapa nah abis... Kul 4 dang... Haha... Aku tidur d ruang tamu atu jua... Nda tah ku peduli lagi kan bising atu... Tapi malar tebangun lah...

and kana banguni kul 7... To get ready kan balik BSB... Kul 9 kali we balik... After breakfast2... Upload2 gmbr... Transfer2 gmbar... Hehehe.... Time balik atu ujan labat d KB tapi baik jua lah nda along the way to BSB...

n owh ya... A name that should never be mention lagi kana tanya g ulih my aunty2... Drg tanya... Mana ya masa ani fi... Masih ya kacau ko fi??.... N my boring answer 'ntah nda ku tau'... Ok walaupun i dont care pasal him anymore tapi since iya pernah jadi part of me... aku kind of mau tau his whereabouts.... Just prasaan ingin tau... Thats it... Tapi i never heard from him since iya accusing me of mengacau his relationship with another girl... Atu marah ya bini2 atu mengacau relationship kami nda ya marah.... ****... Nda plng ku pernah mengacau drg pnya relationship... Bini2 atu bah bgatal sama org lain... Tuduh nya aku... Crazy jua 2 kan... I know my limits man... Few of my close frens saja yang tau about this and they are really supportive time atu... Thanks people... :)

its almost a year nw... Have i move on?? I guess so... Im not really sure... Tapi i think i am moving on... Tapi bagi ku lah aa... C maci pn agree jua kali ni... Lelaki yang lurus ulah nya kan pupus udah... Lelaki yang menepati cita rasa nda banyak bh d brunei ani... Hahaha... I dun know lah pasal i know aku slalu btapa d rumah... I seldom go out jua... Payah bh kan kluar atu... Kerana most of my fren suka melepak smpai tgh2 malam... Its againts dari cara kami kana besarkn... Limit ah paling aher th kul 10...

bh udah eh trover ku... Kan skulah kali aa... Hehehe... Aher udh :p

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Lepak2...

Masa ani lepak2 d ruang tamu... Well d luar dorng yang lain bbq.... Menunggu kan karaoke bh ni sebenarnya... Tapi kan menghormati maulud Nabi... Karang lah aher cikit we nyanyi2... Hahah.... Menunggu org tua2 balik bdikir... Hahah...

ada wah my aunty pnya kawan 'hensem'!! Hahah.... Malu jua ku ni kan gtau my aunt... :p hahahha.... Talo eh.... Krg tah.... N i meet my old fren back in primary school udah... Gf nya kawan my aunt... Yatah... Ia try to convince me masuk BSP... I said liat dulu lah... Awu kaya pulang tapi i dont knw... My parents pun ok plng....

bh2 kan bedangdutan ku dulu ah... Hahah...

yours truly
FIFI

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Seriously???

At last kesampaian ku makan kebab... Hehehe... Nyum~ nyum~ hehehe... Lately ani my family suka dgr lagu dangdutan.... Awu... Betul... Abis bekaraoke.. Last last nya mesti pasang lagu dangdut 2.... Hahaha... Yatah tadi masa d pasar malam we stop by arah 1 gerai jual cd dangdut kan... Hahhah... Mcm... Mas... Ganteng deh kamu... Hhaha... Talo... :p really im into indonesian guy masa ani... Sampai at 1 point i even mention to my family that i dont mind married to indonesian guy.. Hehe.. :)

esok saya awal bangun ni... Long journey to KB.... Sebenarnya nda plang jauh... Tapi i tend to get sleepy while driving... Yatah while driving aku prefer pasang lagu hip hop... Because of the beat.... Hhmmm... Asyik... Hahah....

owh... A name that should never be mention lagi kana mention ulih my mum... Hhmm... Aku nda sure dari mana datang nya lagi tu tapi... Ntah la... My conversation sama my mum pasal ada casper menagur 1 of the employee yang kaja pat CB... 'awal jua kita datang' that thing said... Heheh... Yatah kataku pat my mum CB ani arah mana ah... She said 'tampat bakas c *tut* kaja'.... Macam... I said 'aaahh'... Buang kes tah ku... Why should she mention him... Org lain ada jua 2 kaja sana jua... Ntah lah... Biarin deh... Aku nda kisah lagi... Mentioning his name does not affect my life anymore...

aku ngantuk udah... I'll update some more esok ya... Till then...

yours truly
FIFI

Turning my head left and right....

I've been following this couples blog since they are still in the relationship.... Now the relationship vanish... Actually i dont know the real story behind... Tapi what i know pasal ada pihak k-tiga.... Hahhaha sibuk jua ku 2 kan.... :p

yatah i dont know usulnya they still love each other tapi yatah... The broken heart cannot be fixed lagi... The guy is so sweet tho... With his words... Mun aku 2... I'll be thinking about giving a 2nd chance... Tapi depends on why we broke up in d 1st place tho... Hhmm... And the girl she moved on... She has a new guy now... I dont know... Org might think that she's the reason why all this happen tapi actually i think its not... Duh! From what i read bah... Hehehe...

actually right now im marking the students work... Tiring bah kamu... I give work they give me the same thing jua... Nda dorng membuat kaja atu lah ertinya... Entah eh... I dont want to marah2 today... Im not in d mood kan marah2... I'll xplode lagi if i get angry now... Aku nda suka when aku marah pasal makin jauh tia lagi aku with the student... You people get what i mean kan...

n nw im hungry.... Jadinya kenapa kan... Heheheh....

yours truly
FIFI

Friday, March 6, 2009

Restless...

Yes... That is what i am feeling now.. At this very moment... Restless... Im not complaining... Tapi its just that i dont know how to shift that feeling... I dont know lah i cant wait till all this comes to an end... Walaupun im not into this but i never fail to berniat dalam hati if not all atleast half of them will get something from me... :)

where is my mimpi2 indah going to huh?? I've been missing them so much... Even if i didnt get my hari2 yang indah atleast ada mimpi indah pun jadi tah... Hehehe... Thats how bad things were with me now... I guess... Hehehe....

my mum ask tadi what am i going to do after this TP thingy... N i said i dont know... Kan cari kaja permanent i cant just yet pasal i have another semester xtra... Dont ask me why... Malas ku jawap... Paham2 sendiri... I think cari part time... Tapi where ah?? Hm... I have few on my mind... Tapi we see lah how it goes... :)

i just dont know what to blog about... Pasal few of my favourites nda beupdate... Few of them bercerita pasal their not going so well relationship... Im seaching for happy2 post from the other bloggers tapi i seem cant find one.... I dont have time to add new blog as my favourite...

i cant wait for the weekend... Pasal?? Cuti la... Im going to KB tho for the weekend... Ada acara yang mesti dihadiri... My aunt engagement day... Wweehhee... Ia selalu cakap tu dulu... Kamu dulu kawin baru aku... N nah siapa dulu dapat jodoh... Heheh... Good for her...

kamu masa ani aku craving kan makan kebab... Bowh!... Ehheh... Really.. Kan singgah ku k pasar malam tadi skali kan dekat udah simpang rumah... Esok saja kali ah... Heheh...

bah time ku kan meliat AOD ni... Heheheh... Anyone yang watching jua??? My fav ceta EU.... Hhhheeennnnsssseeeemmmmm pelakun nya!!! Hahahha..... Bah2... :p what??? I know im 23 tapi still macam teenagers kah?? Haha... Who cares...

yours truly
FIFI

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Pintu hati ku...

Im not going to talk about my work lah aa... Biarlah rahsia... Hahaha... Macam tah rahsia sangat... Malas ku share... No one bother jua... Iya kah??? Hehehe....

aku ada idea kn post my writing ni... So here goes... Tadi in the staffroom... Me and cigu amin had conversation... We talk about alot of things... Ada yang cali... Ada yang eye-opener... For me that is... Ada yang apa g ah... Hahah.... Macam2 ada... Ada yang scary... C maci suka 2 ceta scary2... Hahaha....

dari what i know tadi rupanya bukan aku saja yang suka kusut pasal f the guy is being late... Haha... Banar dang... I always had issue ni pasal org aher aa... Nda kisah lah aher dari segi apa... Yang selalu kalau bjanji slalu nda lurus... Aher datang tia... Macam2 alasan lh... N dari c amin jua ku tau rupanya guys get nervous if they start getting late... Takut the lady bad mood... Rusak jua plan kan 2... Yatah tereflect on what i used 2 do 2 that someone... Hhmmm.... True kh?? Haha... I know aku ani jenis nya lambat sadar... :p ntah la... Nyasal?? Hhmm... Hati ku saja yang tau...

owh ya... I have few questions on my mind actually... Feel free to answer them lah aa... If you want to that is... Do men turned off when d lady has a big salary compared to them?? Why??.. Ok2 i know pasal ego n somethings i dont know what lagi... Tapi are the men willing kan biarkan d lady membujang smpai tua just pasal the difference in salary?? How much different yang bagi dorang reasonable??

sebenarnya aku kisah if d guy salary is lower than me... Tapi udah ni ku bagi discount aa n now aku nda brapa kisah... Hahaha... After aku consider few things... Ok walaupun aku belajar ilmu maths and accounting but aku still is a boros person... Hehehe... Bukan ku gila harta sayang... Tapi keadaan dunia karang ani yang buat aku pentingkan all that... N you think knapakan aku mau join askar??... You think la yourself.... If sudah jodoh nda plng dapat ku lawan 2... Tapi bila masih bulih berusaha ani selagi atu we can change it kn... Dunia~ dunia~

bah atu saja dulu eh... Hhmmm~ :)

yours truly
FIFI

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Setelah sekian lama...

Testing~ testing~...

hahah... Ok people im sorry for the lack of update... Its due to me being not feeling well... And now still not feeling that well... But my condition improve la abit... Ada paning2 here n there... I know if nda sihat im suppose to take MC tapi aku ani stubborn jenis nya... Yatah... I do still go 2 school... Yes i do mengajar but baik jua student ku nda bnyak karenah... So far their behaviour dapat ku control... Student ku ok jua dari segi btanya2 soalan ani... Aku prefer that way walau drg nda paham ku ajar atleast have a courage kan btanya soalan... Well it can be considered as lucky if you have student yang willing to ask soalan... N my supervisor will be coming tommorrow... Ntah ah... We see how it goes esok... Hopefully turned out well... Masa ani alum plng ku nervous... Tapi... Nda tau esok....

as for my personal life... Nada yang interesting... Same saja... Should i blame this TP thingy... I dont think so... Ok pun saja... Nda bz n stressful macam yg ku imagine... Owh... I tebaca dri my fren pnya blog she'll be meeting someone new... Ntah jadi kah nda... 'maci! Update plz' haha... Yatah... I've been thinking... Batah udah ku nda jmpa kenalan baru aa... The last time last december?? Atu batah... Haha... Im not xcited kan jmpa kenalan baru ani... Tapi its fun jua bila d pikirkan... Menambah xperience bh....

tapi cana aku kan jmpa kenalan baru pasal since what happen yang the last time atu aku kind of building walls between me n outside life... Hhmm.... Bh... Betukang tah ku ni merubuh walls yang ku bina dulu atu.... Hahaha....

im praying that life will treat me good starting tommorrow n forever... :)

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Charity event

There will be a chariy event @ MOF... Which starts this morning... Till afternoon i guess... Mcm previous charity event... There will be movie screening... Jual2an... Come n drop by @ MOF lobby... Ada ku d MOF masa ani.. Damam2... Awu... Kna pajal ikut... Hhmm...