im fine~~

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
- no one... semalam aku nda ketawa... serious saja.... karau mua ku.... hahaha... :p

2. What were you doing at 0800?
- still on bed...

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
- alot!! mencheck game d facebook... balas message orang.... chatting.... dgr lagu.... multitasking... hehe

4. What happened to you in 2006?
- sad year :(

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
- nada ya dluar atu kan?? (refering to our cat)

6. How many beverages did you have today?
- just one as of now... :)

7. What color is your hairbrush?
- brown...

8.What was the last thing you paid for?
- apa ah.. oh... keropok chipster... sedap... it was few days ago... hehe...

9. Where were you last night?
- home....

10. What color is your front door?
- dark brown....

11. Where do you keep your change?
- everywhere... hehe...

12. What's the weather like today?
- fine sunny day...

13. What's the best ice-cream flavor?
-chocolate fudge brownies... ben n jerry's....

14. What excites you?
- grabbing certain ppl's attention... haha...

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
- awu... tapi i try to keep it for a while until im ready to cut it... :)

16. Are you over the age of 25?
- not yet... hehehe... :p

17. Do you talk a lot?
- sometimes i do... ngalih ku bcakap ah... hehehe....

18. Do you watch the O.C.?
- nope...

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
- i know... just that i never meet one... :)

20. Do you make up your own words?
- yup... :)

21. Are you a jealous person?
- berabisly penjealous... i think... heheh...

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'.
- A......

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'.
- K......

24. Who's the first person on your received call list?
- aku nda tau siapa psal ya salah no... i was driving that time my mum jwpkn... tarus2 lagi 2 bawa ckp cina... hehehe....

25. What does the last text message you received say?
- c wana text me.. biar lah rahsia... hahaha

26. Do you chew on your straw?
- nda...

27. Do you have curly hair?
-nope... but i would love to have one... :)

28. Where's the next place you're going to?
- somewhere... :p

29. Who's the rudest person in your life?
- someone..

30. What was the last thing you ate?
- dairy milk chocolate....

31. Will you get married in the future?
- insya Allah...

32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks?
- none.... :(

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
- nope... :)

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
- everyday after makan or minum...

35. Are you currently depressed?
- why should i be depressed....???

36. Did you cry today?
- nda pun....

37. Why did you answer and post this?
- bosan!!!!

Light my way~

Im officially getting dark... Yes... Dark!! Hehe... Tapi alai nda kisah tho... Psal last wednesday i swim for two hours dari kul 3 till 5... Panas yo... My coach puji my swimming style... Tapi stamina ku plus my breathing technique lagi kan d improve... Insya Allah... I'll master it within the last few lessons... :)

do i look like aku bru abis form 5 kh?? I've encounter fews times udah orang pikir aku masa ni msih menunggu result o level... Ntah aku pun nda tau... Kan rasa bangga kah nda... Hmm...

owh ya... Tadi i went to consumer fair plus rtb carnival... Ramai!! Tapi aku nda smpat liat c naj perform... :( i met my fren tadi... Last time aku jmpa kdia masa raya... Lama 2... Hehe... Of all the question she asked... Yg paling mahal... Ada bf ko udh?? I was like... Ah? Bf?... Dlm hati plng 2... I said nada buat masani... Sabar ah... She was xcited actually meliat status ku d fb... Mcm bbf udh bunyinya katanya... Tapi i said nada :)

its almost 2 years now im without serious relationship... The last one i didnt consider serius la... Puppy love i guess... Withing those times i've met or known some guys... Tapi somehow nada yang menarik perhatian... Ada actually tapi nda melakat d hati... Atas sebab2 yg nda dapat delakkan... Hehe... Masa first berkenalan atu penting sangat2... I love it kalau masa first berkenalan atu we click tarus... N thats when i know to continue mengenali... Tapi payah nyamu kan mencari guys yang we instantly click... Bnyk nya 'investigator'... Constantly asking too many questions... Cukup tah betanya some basic question ah... Ani eh abis dpisinya... Fed up alai tarus... Bosan!!

ok... Aku ada qualification to be an educator... Tapi somehow along those years ku study to become an educator atu i lost the interest... N i found my new interest... Atu pun kn d argue ulih the 'investigator' ah... Outside i can be a'girly girl' tapi deep inside aku ani 'powerpuff girl'... As c wana said... Hehe... Respecting my interest is very important... Bukan sja for 'dorang' atu lah... Even some of my fren pun... I know orang suprise with my new interest atu tapi somehow kan betanya atu biar soalan nya supportive... Ani nda... Mcm ntah malas ku cakap...

walau apa pun... Cinta itu satu misteri... So masa ani i'm happily single... Giving up is not my game... I accept any idea n kritikan yang membina... N i'm avoiding/ignoring orang yang menjatuhkan my self confidence... Thank you.

Belajar lah untuk cinta~~

Hehe... Its just a lyric to a song...

starting this week no more play2... Serius business ye.... I sign up for swimming class... Wwee... Im xcited... I miss my class today atas sebab2 yang tidak dapat delakkan... Aku rindu kan beranang.... Its not that hard la.... If you know how plus the right way.... Voila.... Everything would be just fine.... I LOVE SWIMMING!! :p plus aku start udah awal tdur... 9 tdur th alai 2... Xcept kalau terbgn or terngigau... Heheheh... Ani alai kn tdur udah rasanya... Tapi im waiting for ceta stupid cupid... Baru first episode lawa udh jalan ceta nya...

nanti alai smbg ani kn meliat ceta stupid cupid dlu....

Blues...

I dont know... Somehow i feel blue tonite... :(

'Ya Allah... Tabahkanlah hati hambaMu ini...'

with me still in the job hunting mode ani... I miss my school years... Not that i wanted to go back n do it all over again... Tapi masa skulah atu... Your focus to go to school... Learn... Socialise... N get good grades... Psal masa jobless ani... All i do... Berurusan ksana kemari with so many things to focus on... Not socialising enough... N good luck is very needed in those processes... Im not complaining... I try to adapt... Tapi i hope soon no more worries...

sorry about the randomness... I feel blue... Y blue.. Y?? Hehe...

-motivation-

One important key to success is self confidence.
An important key to self confidence is preparation.

Arthur Ashe

bila saya bosan....

When was the last time you had a real smile on your face?
- i cant even remember... :)

Has a boy/girl ever cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend for you?
- i guess so... :)

Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?
- i do... tapi i know its not worth it... psal iya GILA!

When’s the last time you had a late night phone conversation? and with?
- few nights ago... :)

Do you honestly believe that good things happen to those who wait?
- i do believe... saya sedang bersabar lah ni... :)

Do you want to see someone this very minute?
- nope... :)

Do you trust all of your friends?
- NDA!

Are you happy with the way things are going?
- part of it yes... n part of it NO!... tapi im grateful :)

Are you a forgiving person?
- im in the learning process... n its not easy... :)

Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace?
- YES~!

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
- yes... a few of them :)

Describe how you feel about your life in the past month using one word:
-LOVELY~~!!

Would you like to go back and change any part of your life?
- i would... tapi i prefer to just let it be... i believe ada hikmah nya... :)

When will your next kiss be?
- far future... :)

Where were you at midnight?
- home... :)

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
- NO~!

Last person you saw other than your family?
- random people...

Will tomorrow be better than today?
- i pray for it to be better :)

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you drank?
- water :)

What does your hair look like right now?
- ponytail... :)

Is there a night you’d like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
- yes... :)

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
- c 'a'... what?? we still friend ok~! :D

Do you know anyone who doesn’t smoke pot?
- ramai~!

Name a time you thought you were going to die?
- none that i could remember... :)

Which of your friends lives closest to you?
- nda ku pasti... n aku nda mau pastikan siapa... :p

What annoys you?
- a person yang suka menyibuk hal orang tapi bila orang kan tanya balik the same question pasal dirinya... buat-buat NDA TAU~~!!! pissed ku tu ah.... apa rasanya bila ku balasi balik atu???!!!

Next vacation you’re going on?
- dont know... tapi hopefully DUBAI~~!!

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
- YES!!!

What was the last thing you ate?
- cereal... :)

Ever sneak out the house?
- saya budak baik... and will always be budak baik :D

Last thing you purchased?
- tat talur n begedel for breakfast... :)

What’s your favorite beverage?
- coke...

Ever dated a blond-haired, blue-eyed person?
- aku mau cuba... :D

Do you ever lie about your age?
- nope... buat apa... sedang kan masa ani orang pikir im 20... sad!

Who was the last person you hugged?
- nda alai ingat or tau... malas alai kan ingat or tau... :p

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
- YES~!!! stuck tu ya d dalam kepala ku for the rest of my life... :(

yours truly

When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.
Helen Keller

the truth is...

ok... this may sound weird enough for some of you guys yang not knowing the real story... tapi

im NO LONGER angau or have any lovey dovey feeling towards 'a'....

no further comment on that statement....

im only gonna play the fool one time

-end-

go on girl...

I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
She don't know how to act
Never been a dumb dude
No I'm not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good guy
She was the bad girl
I'm thinking one girl
She thinking me, earl James and jimmy
Yep she had plenty
But love for me, she didn't have any

I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on


Please don't worry bout me I'm fine
(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That I'll be OK
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl


I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
She don't know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
She at the bar getting drinks from many men
I'm in the house, thinking shes with her girlfriends
Just not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, man, I was open

I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on


The mistake I made is clear
(we never should've been together)
Thats the reason you're not here
(I know that I can do much better)
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I'm feeling no stress
I'm too fly to be depressed

Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl

ne-yo

p/s: love this song... repeat mode whenever im on the road...

inspirational....

If you knew me yesterday, please do not think that it is the same person that you are meeting today.

John Powell

When i first saw him~~

I just got back dari muara beach... Duh! Skadar... Not for me tho... I met him!!!! *happy* :p he invited me on his outings with the cousins... My stomach bnyk butterfly~~ eventho i brought my sister along... The cousins are crazy2 ckit... crazy fun i mean... Hehe...

i guess some of his cousins nda tau yang sebenarnya im there as a fren saja... :) yang spoil nya aku pemalu... Good thing plng 2 tapi ntah ah... Aku takut kana ucap nda sporting saja... :) dorang bh nyuruh makan saja... Alai ani bh gagar... Haha... All in all im glad that i agreed on the invitation... Happy... Tapi still nada mengharap sangat... :)

waiting for his phone call saja lagi ni tonite...

till the next post... *smile*

He said...

...if i cant sleep... Kacau him... Tapi i refuse to... Im not that selfish... He got to wake up early in the morning for work... N me bulih lagi bangun a.h.e.r... Hehe... Tapi i have to wake up early jua since iya minta bgni... I shud have said no... Tapi i want to... Hehehe...

am i angau for him?? *sigh* i dont know... I think i am... Tapi i dont want to admit that i am... Hahaha... :p should i ask him to accompany me for sushi later?? Since me n wana tukar plan... Hhmmm... If he ask me i'll say yes tho... Me kan ask him... Malu eh... Lagipun i'll stick to batas2 menjadi seorang perempuan... Heheh... Cukup tah with the confession... :)

sorry for the randomness about him...

until my next post... Happy... Happy... Happy day!

Dengarkan lah pengakuan ku~~

~~... I officially told him about my feelings towards him... And Alhamdulillah... His attitude nda berubah... I dont know if this is the right thing to do... Tapi sekali sekala wa ikut macam dalam drama/movie... Confess to someone that you fall for them.... :) tapi im not pushing him tho... I know batas2 nya... Teman tapi mesra... Hohoho~!

i heard the other job yang i applied before kan ada written test plus presentation... I dont know if aku eligible tho for the job... Tapi if i were... Mudahan jua dapat la.... Aku alum prepare for the test... Plus alai nda suka eh buat presentation ani... N i've been eagerly waiting for that one phone call... Bth eh... Nda sabar alai ni....

the two songs i've posted previously is what i felt inside for the past few days... Now... Bru tah aku bisa berkata2... I lost apetite... My sleeping pattern changed suddenly... Hope everything went back to normal soon enough...

until my next post... Have a faboulous day ahead...

fallin' for you

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh

Oh I’m fallin’ for you

colbie caillat

you belong with me...

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

taylor swift

He took my heart away...

Its four something in the morning... N im still wide awake... Bru abis talking on the phone with 'a'...

he's ok... My kind of guy... Got a job... Sedap mata memandang... N we click... Tapi... Masa on the phone i just find out yang he got a girlfriend... Waduh... Major2 turn off tarus... He did ask... We still can be friend??.. I said yea... Why not... Tapi dalam hati??... Hhmmm... Why do i always encounter this thing... What i normally do... I back off... Nda alai suka kan kacau relationship orang since i know how it feels kalau ada pihak ketiga... Tapi... I dont know... With him... I try my best to remain as friend with no love involve... Just merely friend...

besar sungguh dugaan Mu ini ya Allah...~

he said he's comfy talking with me n glad to know me... *fyi.. He got issues plng with his current gf..* tapi i cant accept the compliment... Psal iya ada someone... Masa he confess i honestly kn tutup saja the phone... Tapi... I just cant... What should i do... Kalau th aku tanya iya awal2 iya ada gf or not things would be easy kn... Plus suara nya lagi asyik... *sigh*

oh well... Karang ptang outing sama teman ku c wana... Movie marathon i guess... Hopefully this feeling will fade away...

Teman ku... Help!! :(