Choices...

Tadi my mum ask me... Of all the jobs application yg i've submitted... Which one is my first choice? I said... Yg mana bgi offer dlu atu la yg i choose... Tapi deep inside... I dont really have a clue... Yang atu kh atau yang ani... Hhmmm...

sebenarnya i never think about it... All i know apply saja ikut qualification... I think i better start give a deeper thought on this matter... Penting woo... Ada kena mengena dengan future...

some people might want to really enjoy their free time... Tapi i really need a job soon... Nda sanggup buang masa drumah... Nothing to do makes me crazy... By next year my sisters start a new job n a new school term... N me?? Apa tah kn ku buat d rumah... Doing house chores? Oh no! Cukup th udah ni cuti ku baru kn seminggu ah... Buntu otak...

candle in the dark
FIFI

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hari cuti ku... so far~~

walau baru 5 hari berlalu.. tapi so far ok la... ada jua hasil nya... at least nda sia2 catu saja kan... tapi what im actually looking forward is to watch the new moon.... weehheee.... ssoooonnnnn!!!

december is coming up... dear december... please be good to me ya... nothing much i ask for but for you to be a better month saja... *kenyit2 mata*

~~~Even though it seems I have everything.... I don't wanna be a lonely fool~~~

The inside...

Sigh... Wouldnt it be fun kalau abis exam ani ada 'someone' spoiled you with movie dates... Dinner dates... Or just strolling around by the side of the beach... Untuk menenangkan pikiran... Or just spend a lil bit of their time to mendengar rintihan hati... It would be soothing rite?

Berangan sejenak...

Well... Tadi i had a conversation with my mum... Psal kaja thingy... Sebenarnya i wanna apply pat my mum work place for pegawai kewangan... Tapi know what... My mum ckp... Jgn tah apply sna bah... N nda siuk 2 jadi pegawai kewangan... Teranah d office saja... *thinking mode on* banar jua ah... Nda seronok... Psal dri xperience ku... Stay @ d office doing all that job... Hhmmm... Not so very interesting... You have to ikut the boss wants... If nda satisfy mesti buat smpai boss satisfy... Walau secreative mana still jua mun nda ya puas hati... Paksa tah... Tau2 sndiri... :)

bila d pikirkan... I want a job yang dapat travel alot... Cause i LOVE travelling... Jadi stewardess?? Jangan becali eh... :p if not bcause of my eye sight... I might b applying to a pilot... Tapi with nowadays punya technology... I think it can be fixed... Hehe...

ever since high school... When i grow up i want to a forensic expert... Tapi too bad... I dont have any physics... Yatah... Im a lil bit disappointed... Well what to do... Life must go on...

n why i want to join the armed force? Simple... Psal... U wear uniform to work... Proud kali aa... *dreaming* hehehe... N ada chance to travel jua... So... Hehehe...

sebenarnya banyak job opportunities... Tapi terserah pat diri... U want asal ada job n stuck with it for the rest of ur life doing what actually u nda ikhlas doing atau... Find ur dream job n love doing it every second of ur life... Ikhlas bekeraja atu yg penting... Supaya apa yg tani usahakan atu dapat berkat which insya Allah brings happiness yg cukup bermakna... ;)

yours truly
FIFI

Current updates

Its been a while i didnt update this blog... Katakn bz nda jua... Lets just say that lack of idea on what to update... Heheh...

i'd been mentioning about joining the OCS in my recent post... N i've already send the application form since last month... Skalinya... My dad yesterday mentioning about ada intake pengambilan inspector police... He ask me to join it as well... Mcm... Im into army not police... No offence tapi my minat ke arah sana bh... Yatah i said oh ok... Heheh... Tapi Alhamdulillah jua iya nda majal... Since my mum pun back up kan aku... Heheh... Nw all i have to do is just wait for that one important call... N preparing myself physically n mentally... Susah yo... N i havnt start yet... N evryone bising2 udah... 'baik tah ko start.. Krg pancit...' bla bla bla... Hehehe...

exam is coming up... Sigh... Ok... No further xplanation on that :p

well at the moment i 'rapat' this one guy... Totally opposite my dream guy... Well... Ppl might ask... U know his not ur type of guy tapi knapa rapat wif him... So my answer would be...

i like to feel how its like to be with someone yg bukan my dream guy... Its not easy i must say... I try adapt tapi i dunno when it'll last... Bukan kan main2 kan perasaan nya... Tapi im in the learning process... Its safe to say that im no longer short tempered... Weehheee... Back then bila aku rasa nda puas ati i'll say what ever i have in mind regardless it hurts or not... Now... Aku pndai main sindir2 udah.... Sindiran yg somehow works... Hehe... Without menyakitkn hati that is... :)

im happy with my life so far... Walau ada ups n down... Well smua atu mengajar diri ku for a better future... i know i cant impress everyone tapi at least i can learn/get something from them ;)