hari cuti ku... so far~~

walau baru 5 hari berlalu.. tapi so far ok la... ada jua hasil nya... at least nda sia2 catu saja kan... tapi what im actually looking forward is to watch the new moon.... weehheee.... ssoooonnnnn!!!

december is coming up... dear december... please be good to me ya... nothing much i ask for but for you to be a better month saja... *kenyit2 mata*

~~~Even though it seems I have everything.... I don't wanna be a lonely fool~~~

The inside...

Sigh... Wouldnt it be fun kalau abis exam ani ada 'someone' spoiled you with movie dates... Dinner dates... Or just strolling around by the side of the beach... Untuk menenangkan pikiran... Or just spend a lil bit of their time to mendengar rintihan hati... It would be soothing rite?

Berangan sejenak...

Well... Tadi i had a conversation with my mum... Psal kaja thingy... Sebenarnya i wanna apply pat my mum work place for pegawai kewangan... Tapi know what... My mum ckp... Jgn tah apply sna bah... N nda siuk 2 jadi pegawai kewangan... Teranah d office saja... *thinking mode on* banar jua ah... Nda seronok... Psal dri xperience ku... Stay @ d office doing all that job... Hhmmm... Not so very interesting... You have to ikut the boss wants... If nda satisfy mesti buat smpai boss satisfy... Walau secreative mana still jua mun nda ya puas hati... Paksa tah... Tau2 sndiri... :)

bila d pikirkan... I want a job yang dapat travel alot... Cause i LOVE travelling... Jadi stewardess?? Jangan becali eh... :p if not bcause of my eye sight... I might b applying to a pilot... Tapi with nowadays punya technology... I think it can be fixed... Hehe...

ever since high school... When i grow up i want to a forensic expert... Tapi too bad... I dont have any physics... Yatah... Im a lil bit disappointed... Well what to do... Life must go on...

n why i want to join the armed force? Simple... Psal... U wear uniform to work... Proud kali aa... *dreaming* hehehe... N ada chance to travel jua... So... Hehehe...

sebenarnya banyak job opportunities... Tapi terserah pat diri... U want asal ada job n stuck with it for the rest of ur life doing what actually u nda ikhlas doing atau... Find ur dream job n love doing it every second of ur life... Ikhlas bekeraja atu yg penting... Supaya apa yg tani usahakan atu dapat berkat which insya Allah brings happiness yg cukup bermakna... ;)

yours truly
FIFI

Current updates

Its been a while i didnt update this blog... Katakn bz nda jua... Lets just say that lack of idea on what to update... Heheh...

i'd been mentioning about joining the OCS in my recent post... N i've already send the application form since last month... Skalinya... My dad yesterday mentioning about ada intake pengambilan inspector police... He ask me to join it as well... Mcm... Im into army not police... No offence tapi my minat ke arah sana bh... Yatah i said oh ok... Heheh... Tapi Alhamdulillah jua iya nda majal... Since my mum pun back up kan aku... Heheh... Nw all i have to do is just wait for that one important call... N preparing myself physically n mentally... Susah yo... N i havnt start yet... N evryone bising2 udah... 'baik tah ko start.. Krg pancit...' bla bla bla... Hehehe...

exam is coming up... Sigh... Ok... No further xplanation on that :p

well at the moment i 'rapat' this one guy... Totally opposite my dream guy... Well... Ppl might ask... U know his not ur type of guy tapi knapa rapat wif him... So my answer would be...

i like to feel how its like to be with someone yg bukan my dream guy... Its not easy i must say... I try adapt tapi i dunno when it'll last... Bukan kan main2 kan perasaan nya... Tapi im in the learning process... Its safe to say that im no longer short tempered... Weehheee... Back then bila aku rasa nda puas ati i'll say what ever i have in mind regardless it hurts or not... Now... Aku pndai main sindir2 udah.... Sindiran yg somehow works... Hehe... Without menyakitkn hati that is... :)

im happy with my life so far... Walau ada ups n down... Well smua atu mengajar diri ku for a better future... i know i cant impress everyone tapi at least i can learn/get something from them ;)

Final decision in the making...

Borang... Checked
family support... Checked
qualifications... Checked
friends support... Checked
self confidence... Half done
fitness level... Pending

the due date by next week...

the lesson's learned...

Changes

will young

Gotta shake myself up here

I should run away, run away, run away

People say dont even go near

I can see the danger, Im aware, I see the danger

If I go back once again its like I learned nothing

Standing at the front of a queue

Heading for trouble

Hope it changes

Hope my life changes

Gets alright somehow

Oh Im waiting for tomorrow

I hope it changes

Cant you stay the same

Been out of luck for so long

And I dont get much so theres nothing much to lose

Its like a record going round

Yes its going round, going round, going round

I know I should wanna take it off

But I find it hard, why do I find it hard?

I used to have a vision

I was sitting somewhere up there

Looking down on myself

Doing right for once in my life

It changes

Hope my life changes

Gets alright somehow

Oh Im waiting for tomorrow

I hope it changes

Cant you stay the same

Been out of luck for so long

And I dont get much

So theres nothing much to lose

I just need a break

A little one

To get me up to watch the sun

And hey its peaceful here

Hope it changes

Hope my life changes

Gets alright somehow

Oh Im waiting for tomorrow

Hope it changes

Cant you stay the same (cant you stay the same)

Been out of luck for so long (cant you stay the same)

Dont get much so theres nothing much to lose

Changes

Oh Im waiting for tomorrow

Hope it changes

Cant you stay the same

Been out of luck for so long

Hhmmm~

Yesterday... I dreamt the guy.. Whom i missed his smile alot... Mimpi indah brabis... Alhamdulilah.. Heheh... Yatah mood blues ku tebawa2 smpai ari ani... Nw... Melayan perasaan mendgr lagu2 c kaer....

kau tinggal kan memori indah... Sayang~

kini kau hilang dari pandangan mata ku~

*sigh*

on random note... I read somewhere... Your friend shares her good news.. New job... New man... And while you're happy for her... You cant help but feel like a failure at work/love... To overcome this... Look at the fact... Has nothing nice ever happened to you?

banar plng... What it says... Tani ada rezeki masing2... Lambat atu cepat... Datang jua 2 rezeki atu... All we need to do sabar... Berdoa... N berserah...

bebalik pat blues mood ku... *sigh*... Cana ku kan overcome ni?? Liat2 gmbar arah facebook nya?? Kan menagur awkward rasanya... :(

oh well

salam ramadhan
FIFI